Hi all. Thanks for the nice comments. I am feeling slightly more positive. I had a moan on Facebook about my anxiety going through the roof and my cousin rang me and let me have a really good rant and moan and then gave me a big verbal hug and I feel a million times better. Didn't help that I had to play happy families with my ex at DDs netball match and he spent the whole time glaring at me. Found out after I got home that apparently my parents had an argument with him last night and put him firmly in his place over a few things so that probably explains why, he probably thinks I put them up to it. So anyway yesterday I managed to send myself into full on panic attack and spent all night trying to get my heart rate down and calm myself. Then today again I had chest pains, splitting headache, blood pumping in my face and head, shortness of breath, feeling dizzy and sweaty... but better than yesterday. Thinking I may go to my parents next week for some r&r.
Some of the mums at school noticed I've put on a bit of weight. Only 1 said something but I did catch a few looks then panicked looking away when they see I've spotted them.
Think I may have to tell DD sooner than 12 weeks as I've got the feeling I'll be obviously showing before then. Really wanted to wait till after the scan so I know it's all safe so fingers crossed it comes through early. Or I at least hear a heartbeat on the doppler before I tell her.
Symptoms - well last week nothing much, but this week (I'm 6+6) I've got nausea, cramps, headaches, emotional, killer boobs, my eyes feel weird and I'm wearing my glasses a lot more often, constant weeing, hungry, really thirsty, stuffy nose, weight gain and weird sleeping - bouncing between insomnia and narcolepsy.
I picked up my Bounty bag from Boots, and 3 Emma's diary bags which are pretty good, lots of little freebies and samples. 
Hope those with worries are OK and you're all worrying about nothing!
Take care everyone. xx