Oh no, itsliz that sounds rubbish! And you're not a failure at all! Have you tried your local CAB for help with the sorts of benefits you're entitled to? These sorts of things can be such a faff trying to get sorted.
Sorry, you're feeling crap pistachio. Probably doesn't help much, but our bodies are swimming with all sorts of stuff that throws us out physically and emotionally, so it's totally normal to feel that way. (Having said that the next person who mentions my hormones is getting punched in the face).
Rose is a lovely name, Roselau. Is that what you're going with?
Also, thanks so much everyone for your kindness yesterday, it really did mean a lot to me when I was feeling so awful 
I can forward you a copy of the completed complaint letter if you like Carole, though it is a bit of an epic.
I do have a perinatal mental health nurse as my midwife referred me after telling me (nonchalantly, whilst barely looking up from her notes, but that's a whole other complaints thread) that because of my Mum's post natal depression and bipolar disorder, I'm at an increased risk of post partum psychosis/depression. I was meant to book a follow up appointment with the nurse aaages ago, but had been putting it off because these things are a bit emotionally draining and it's difficult to motivate yourself to book an appointment for something like that when you know you'll feel crap afterwards, iyswim. Anyways, the appointment is booked now, so I'll be seeing her on October 2nd, or possibly earlier if Dr Bawbag has been able to bring it forward any further. I also have (I suppose now's a good a time as any to come out as a big hippie) my Buddhist study group thing starting next week, so hopefully that should be a big support and give me something to look forward to each week. I've been struggling a wee bit feeling a bit lonely too (as have a lot of people on this thread!) so it'll be good to have a social thing going on.
Sorry for the huge post!