Hi guys. I've completely failed at not telling people. So far I've told 5 of my friends, his 2 best friends, all our parents, his aunty, uncle and cousin, my yoga teacher, my hairdresser (who immediately told everyone in the salon!), my osteopath, a random stranger at the gym, at least 3 random people in shops, and that's me holding back! I have to tell my business partner tomorrow and may tell one of my other colleagues as I need cover for my first midwife appointment next week. Which I'm quite excited about... If she says I definitely can't have a scan on the NHS til 12 weeks I'm going to pay for an earlier one, no way can I wait another 6 weeks to find out how our bambino is doing!
I am feeling very grumpy a lot of the time. That's putting it mildly to be honest. I keep trying to wean myself off the nicotine patches then I have another meltdown and decide it's the lesser of two evils. I'm weepy, grumpy, prone to massive bouts of irrational rage. It's kind of useful for tearing strips off my stupid mobile phone provider but not so great for our relationship. And it's hard to tell when I'm angry cos he's being an arsehole or because I'm crazy hormonal.
I'm finding the tiredness quite hard to adjust to also. The simplest of physical tasks absolutely bugger me and I have to lie down for ages afterwards. Which is frustrating, especially cos it's so early on. Both my best friends have said that's completely normal and it'll get better but it's hard to manage around people who don't know. I'm REALLY bloated, which may be partly due to constipation. I had to wear my old size 8 jeans today for an hour and have been in discomfort ever since. Wish I could just wear tracky bottoms for the next 7.5 months! I've ordered some high waisted jeans from next which are really comfy, they might be worth a try for you all. Sadly my old pair are worn round the crotch so really can't wear them!
The constipation continues if I forget to take Lactulose all the time. The flatulence just seems to be a permanent feature now.
Phew, moan over. I did have this amazing moment today where I thought "wow, i'm growing an actual whole person in there". Glad I've got somewhere to moan about all the annoying symptoms where people understand cos I am obviously delighted to finally be pregnant but it's good to have a moan!