VQ You're welcome! It can be difficult to articulate why I feel the way I do.
I find that those who have had traumatic births either go to one 'extreme' or the other. Most go the way of wanting elective caesarean, some go to the polar opposite of refusing to birth in a hospital setting. I initially went the way of wanting ELLSCS for the first 4 weeks after DS's birth. But I suddenly and unexpectedly started to question and research what had happened. And with in days found myself at a total opposite view point for my personal circumstance. For me, it was the cascade of intervention and the fear that lead to DS's birth being a completely horrific experience.
I don't think anyone is wrong in the birth they choose. I don't think women should do one thing or another, all they should do is what is right for them. And should be supported in that choice (even if it isn't one we would agree with).
I just had the best nights sleep all week!!! Yeah, I woke at 5, and didn't get back to sleep til after 7, but I've just surfaced now and feel like a new woman! Even when I woke, I didn't do anything, just lay there and relaxed. I didn't get up, or come on the computer! Feel so much better for it!! I hope those planets are buggering off now
Currently enjoying a breakfast of Galaxy caramel and 2 packs of french fries, in bed, bought to me by DS (how could I refuse!) and the fact that from midnight til 11am, I managed to not need to get up for a wee! HELL YEAH!!!
Am on another late today, but an early tomorrow, so you can guarantee I won't wake at 5, but will struggle to drag myself out of bed at 6 for work!!!
Apple, I find constant reminders are the only thing that work here. I'm hoping that one day, he will learn! I do despair at times though, just how thoughtless he can be. Yet other times be so good... just get it on an even keel! Arghhh! I hope you can have a chat shout at him til he listens about it, and get him to see that this time in your lives is the time he needs to step up to the plate and prove himself a worthy and supportive partner.