rhi your poor grandfather, how awful for him :( I can totally understand him crying more over losing his dog suddenly, although I imagine a lot of the tears would also have been for your nan. what a crappy few weeks for you all. I spent last night on the phone to my mum with both of us crying, which was strange - we don't really do emotions in our family. think the funeral is going to be really tough :(
anyway, on a brighter note, I realised I'm probably not cut out for self-hypnosis yesterday - finally found some time to try the pregnancy relaxation CD, and sat down to do it. Started well, the first bit was actually about focusing on breathing, and that was great, really effective.
But then she started on about imagining walking down a beautiful country lane, and my mind rebelled - I imagined myself stepping in a cow pat
then scraping it off my shoe with a stick. then she said to imagine a beautiful flower, and I panicked, and couldn't think of any, so my mind was racing 'think of a flower, think of a flower, oh god, what flowers do I know!' and I missed a bit, then she said to imagine a beautiful grassy area with a huge oak tree in the middle. And walk over to it, sit with your back against it, and feel the sunlight on your face.
So I actually started arguing out loud with the CD 'won't there be leaf mould under the tree? what should I sit on? and how can I have sunlight on my face unless it's mid-winter and the tree has no leaves, or it's suffered a hideous accident which lost it a branch?!'. Then the neighbours started fighting and woke DS up, so that was the end of that.
Will try it again later though, as I actually slept for 4 hours last night!!!!!! :o :o :o best sleep in weeks!
12 weeks until mat leave, woohoo!