Hi all,
I was at a party in Yorkshire for the weekend for my cousins 18th. It was lovely to catch up with the family, but the 4 and a half hour drive home was not so good. I was also up at 6.20 am with DD and my boys woke not long after that, despite being up until 11pm. I went to bed at 8.30 last night and am still tired.
I then had a not so good time when I got home last night as when I checked my emails I had a message from my Dad congratulating me on DDs birth.
Long story short, I haven't spoken to my Dad for 18 months as he is crap at keeping in contact and I was getting sick of making all of the effort. He only ever got in touch with me when I did things like send him birthday cards etc. because it reminded him I exist. It got very upsetting for me and I decided to stop sending him cards etc. for my sanity.
He is still my friend on FB but doesn't use it much, so I'm not sure if he knew I was pregnant or has only just found out I've had a baby.
I spent half of the night feeling guilty for not telling him, even though he has never called me or contacted me in any way in the past year and a half. I never get birthday cards or even a text from him. My children don't get birthday cards from him, yet I'm the one who feels guilty. I am so angry with him for making me upset, and I now need to calm down and think what to reply to him. The main problem is he is my Dad and I still love him and have always been a Daddys girl, even though he never deserved it.
Arrrgh, I don't need this when I'm still hormonal.
Sorry for the epic ranting post.