Hi everyone. Firstly thank you for the kind thoughts & comments, it helped a lot. And for those reminding me that 37 weeks is term - you're right & I need to hold onto that.
The midwife rang to say my bloods were fine for 37 weeks, but they're still waiting for water test results & I have 2 midwife appts next week to monitor things. So I'm not in the clear yet, but at least I don't have to go to hospital & can relax at home.
One of you asked what was the main thing I was struggling with - I thought about it & it was the shock news combined with not feeling ready, on top of feeling really ill. Just all too much for me in one day.
I am scared of recovering from a section too - and looking after a newborn on top. I've never had any type of major injury or surgery so I can only imagine how difficult it must be & I have a lot of respect for all the women out there who get through it! I also know I'm influenced by my friend's experience in December too - she had an EMCS & then could not establish BF - I really felt for her.
Of course my baby's health is the most important thing, and I'll do whatever is necessary.
I've realised I need to toughen up my reaction to my community midwife too - she can be a bit negative & she also has a bad habit of humming under her breath for the whole appointment which is unnerving! So 'bad' news is delivered as "hmm hmm hmm you might need to be hospitalised la la la" She also seems fixated on the size of my bump (more comments yesterday, as I've only grown 0.5 cm in a week) even though the hospital scan last week showed DD was perfectly fine & the consultant said she wouldn't expect someone with my build to be mahoosive!
DP is hogging the laptop so I'm typing on my iPod touch, v slow & difficult - & I can't refer to/see other posts - but will try to get it from him later so I can respond to other people's current issues - apologies that this is all about me!