Gareth and Matthews thread for bereaved Mummies - the special thread where the light bulb at the end of the tunnel is always lit xx

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So pleased that we are all here helping each other walk the 'crappy' path xxxx

morning girlsxxxxx

Happy Birthday Harry xxx

Happy Birthday Harry xxx

Thinking of you TW - be gentle with yourself my love x

Happy Birthday Harry - lighting my chocolate candle for you today. TW sending my love and hugs. xxxxxx

Thank you all of you , I don't know what to do with myself today . Should do something but it all seems pointless .

Thinking of you and yours today TW - happy birthday Harry xx

Thinking of you TW - be kind to yourself.

Hello everyone amd a big thank you to all of you xx

I have had a crappy day but I have survived , I am going to have a couple of drinks tonight and toast my boy .

My other two have never really known about the dates but this time asked and remembered , they wanted to send a balloon up for him to play with so we did that this afternoon (in the piddling rain)
It was heart breaking listening to them saying goodbye to the balloon and telling Harry to have a good birthday .

I hope everyone is ok today xx

Awwwww your DC sound fantastic...if only we could all see the world through a childs eyes. On Gareth and Matts 21st birthdays we let off loads of balloons. We all stood there with massive lumps in our throats not daring to talk and Tom who would have been 5 and 7 yrs screamed with laughter and wanted to send more and more off. xxxxx

Aw TW, there's you having a pretty shitty day and you're still seeing if everyone else is ok.

You're a great lady

I'll take a drink with you tonight xxx

hi TW. Was thinking about you today and your boy. I have that lovely picture of him with his book in my head x

Thank you xx

That pic is pretty cute che if I do say so myself

Ilike your drink is on the side next to the comfy chair .

My fire is lit and my dh is home , I am going to get these two ruffians to bed and have a couple of large ones and remember my boy xx

Happy Birthday Harry, a candle is lit here for you. Sending you and your family hugs TW xx

Oh Everlong

I bet it feels just like more unanswered questions. Having to live with the questions is so hard.

TW - how did you know I wanted a glass of rose?

(((Everlong))) I am sorry there are no answers

Everlong - so glad you are here with us but so wish you didnt have to be. Cannot imagine how you are feeling tonight. Sending massive hugs.

Just poured a glass of cider apple juice. Chocolate candle lit. Happy Birthday Harry xxxxxxxxxxxxx Cheers TW xxxxx

Morning girls xx

everlong im so sorry there was no answers, it doesnt make it easier does it.
tw hope you are ok,big hug.
its freezing here ,just unpacked two black bags of dd2 clothes as she comes back a week today,hasnt ironed anything so ill do that bloody task later on in weekx

Good morning everyone , Onwards and upwards eh ? xx

Everlong , what a tough day that must have been yesterday , how you doing today ?
It is so hard, the not knowing , big hugs to you xxx

Oh Everlong - it's so bloody hard when you can't find the answers, isn't it? big hugs to you, my love.

TW - how are you feeling today? I always find, after the anniversary/birthday, that it's a relief, iykwim? And also somewhat of a surprise that i've lived through it and the worlds still turning and i'm still here.
Hugs to you too.

Oh feck it, hugs to everyone today. I'm feeling snotty, slightly damp and bloody hormonal.

Thanks Dee , you are right about the relief feeling , I have managed another birthday and survived is all I can think .But then I feel very guilty that I want it over .
A mothers guilt is ridiculous isn't it ?