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My partner killed himself today

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ForgedInFire · 30/07/2021 20:45

We have 3 young children. One is only a baby. My username is after his favourite TV show and he was so excited to watch a new episode just last night. How is this possible. I haven't told my kids yet and I don't know how I am going to

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MondeoFan · 30/07/2021 23:32

So sorry for your loss. How old was he? We watch forged in fire here too.

SemperIdem · 30/07/2021 23:52

I’m so sorry for your loss, the shock of it must be tremendous Flowers

I think the poster who said to explain that he has died in exactly those terms, to your two older children is right, small children will understand that better than any of the euphemisms we use as adults.

I’m really glad you have people who have rallied around to support you. Look after yourself op

Butterbeer4All · 30/07/2021 23:59

I'm sorry for your loss.

Yaya26 · 31/07/2021 00:01

I am so very sorry. I will be thinking of your and your little ones in the days ahead xx

Gerbi1 · 31/07/2021 00:02

I don’t know what to say but I just want you to know that I care about you and your 3 babies 💐

Daisy62 · 31/07/2021 00:08

I’m so sorry, it sounds unbelievably hard. I’m thinking of you and your children and wishing for strength for you.

EKGEMS · 31/07/2021 00:11

I'm so,so sorry to read this. I'm very glad your family is surrounding you.

2018SoFarSoGreat · 31/07/2021 00:21

@ForgedInFire I am so sorry, this is just awful and shocking and horrifying - it is. You will be reeling for quite some time, so keep the family gathered close around you.

Your poor DH must have been so very ill, so unable to see beyond a way of ending the pain. Not ending the love he had for you and the children, just the pain., His love sounds real and true and clear. Hold onto that, please.

Those of you responding that you too have lost loved ones in this way, Flowers and condolences to you all. None of you deserved this pain, none of you caused this pain. It is so hard, and I can't really truly imagine how you cope, but you do. Hats off to you all. And hugs, if I may offer them.

Changednamesorry · 31/07/2021 00:34

I'm so sorry to hear this. My deepest condolences.

BrainPotter · 31/07/2021 00:35

Oh OP I am sending you so much love. I have been in the same position as you and found sobs.org a very comforting organisation. Sending you love and strength x

pegboardsu · 31/07/2021 00:42

I am so sorry that this has happened.

Cybercubed · 31/07/2021 01:16

Hi OP just to let you I'm thinking about you and your children at this moment in time.

echt · 31/07/2021 01:18

So very sorry for your loss, ForgedinFire.

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blindspots · 31/07/2021 01:26

I am very sorry for your loss @ForgedInFire.

It will be a terrible shock and your world will have imploded.

I lost my young son earlier this year after a short illness, leaving two other young siblings.

With my children we have always been honest and have only ever talked about him "dying" and being "dead" not asleep or gone away. I feel this has helped.

Great books for children that helped us are "Beginnings and Endings with lifetimes in between" and "The Memory Box".

I'm not in the UK but Winstons Wish looks like a great place to start. I follow a lot of grief sites on Instagram and have found them very helpful.

If your friends and family are able to help you, try and let them. I could do all the tasks like organising the funeral and wake and photos and music for the service etc but had no energy to prepare meals for my family and let someone else do that for us.

You will get through this x x x

Anordinarymum · 31/07/2021 01:29

So sorry this has happened to you.

Snugglybuggly · 31/07/2021 01:29
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ChaToilLeam · 31/07/2021 01:34

I am so sorry love. 💐

Redhotchilis · 31/07/2021 01:39

I am so, so sorry for your loss. You and your children are in my thoughts tonight. Lots of love to you all xx Flowers

4ammusings · 31/07/2021 01:41

I am so sorry.

FuckYouCorona · 31/07/2021 01:41

So sorry. Flowers

Mamanyt · 31/07/2021 01:51

I am more sorry than you can know. Not having been through this, and not knowing what resources are available in GB, I can't give you sound advice, other than...when you begin to question yourself, and at some point everyone I know who has been through this does, you did nothing wrong, and nothing you did or did not do could have changed this.

TimeFlying · 31/07/2021 02:05

I found SOBS (Survivors of Bereavement by Suicide) helpful. So many friends just didn't have a clue what I was going through. Some, including family members, avoided me. That was hard.

I eventually got counselling through Cruse because I needed a place to offload all my anger and sadness without 'burdening' others.
Im so sorry to hear that yet another family is going through this. I wish you resilience and love. You will get through this. X

Sunshine4you · 31/07/2021 02:21

So sorry 💐

Percivalthebabyspider · 31/07/2021 02:25

I’m so very sorry OP.

Happyd · 31/07/2021 02:34

So sorry OP 💐

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