Hi Shabbs
I am glad your mum has been found a place in a home. How was she today? Although I have never been in your situation, I do remember very well how much guilt my mum felt when she had to re-home my gran into a nursing home. I remember the mass of emotions. You also need help though and like you said the chance to grieve your dad. I'm sorry you're going through this.
I was thinking of you this morning, all of us in fact actually, when I was out and about and saw life going on, people enjoying the sunshine. I was looking at them thinking, it's so strange that they all look ok, whilst in the meantime Shabb's dad has died and there's a family there going through turmoil and there's a group of us bereaved parents trudging through the days. Makes my mind hurt a bit.
Mojito, thank you for your kind words. I'm touched you were thinking of me, I'm tunnelling through I guess. It has been a very emotional few weeks culminating in me turning into a sobbing mess on Monday, listening to the music we played at the funeral. We have lots of positive things happening this year, but I just can't seem to be excited about any of them. It's not even been a year and I keep thinking why should I try and enjoy myself after my child has died? However, I also realise that I will feel sad about this forever and I can't live in a shell (as much as I would like to). Strange times :(
Lily. I know the feeling. All I keep thinking about is the 1st anniversary which is still a few months away. I hate certain days of the week, certain days of the month.....
Hello to everyone else, I think of you all regularly (really, I do) xxx