"Too Beautiful for Earth" For Sylvie-Rose and all our Angel Children

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For my darling Sylvie-Rose, taken from us just seven weeks after you were born. Too beautiful for this earth but I so wish you could have stayed nonetheless.
And for all the Mums walking this tough path. Let us link arms along the way and not be defeated by the cruel blow life has dealt us.

Probably means though that you will be being kicked to death by 35weeks and feel like your insides have gone 10 rounds with mike tyson!

Ooh I do hope so mylittlemiracle in hindsight Erin was always quite gentle in her kicks and movements I just thought that was normal for her as scans etc were always fine. I wonder now if it's because she was so poorly That poem does sum it up so well.

Hugs fm the lead up to anniversaries must be so hard and without your mum too xxxx

FM its awful when it all bites you on the bum again isin't it? I cant imagine how much you miss your Mum and Im sure I will be a total basket case when I loose my parents. Wish you were closer (in miles) to me - we could have a good chin wag and sort out the world.

You are not self indulgent at all.....8 years old its not fair all this - is it? Would love to have a peep at them - just for a short while to see what they look like now.

xxxxxxx

FM (((hugs))) I am so sorry :(

You're not being self-indulgent, you're in pain. I remember that scan moment too. Bloody SHO took ours, then led us to a little room, told us he couldn't find a heartbeat, but like you, we had to wait till the morning, as the consultant had to do it on a 'proper' scanner, not there little portable ones. All the time I was thinking... what if she's still alive?

I'm so sorry for you about your mum. It must be so crushingly hard.

I hope the next two weeks are as easy as they can be. Have my share of x

FM you are not being self indulgent and anyway this is what this thread is for is to share these thoughts and feelings and now i am coming to terms.

I have been so happy about moving into my own place it rovided stability for my son, but i am deseperate that his sister and brother will not be left behind, cos they are here in my heart

fm you are not being self indulgent. I wish I could take a pill to knock me out until April is over. April is full of all the 'dates'. The first thought I had when the policeman told us Richard had died was 'I want my Mum' and I was 58 (my Mum had died 6 years ago) she would not have left my side until she knew it was ok to do so. Where we get the strength to cope with all this I do not know, but we do . Love to you and yours xxx

Oh, Whatever, those lovely little kicks! I'm so happy for you!

I haven't been on the PC all day, dh and I took the smaller boys on a picnic. Ds1 didn't come, I think he feels embarrassed to be seen with us which is probably normal for a 15 year old. Twice in one week we've taken the picnic basket out, that must be an Irish record! There was a pier in the town that we visited and there was a man doing a cycle for a children's hospital at the start of the pier. With a picture of an ill baby in front of the bike. ( He was cycling but it was fixed so that the bike didn't go anywhere IYKWIM. The picture made me a bit teary. But it was otherwise a lovely day.

Orion, Jude is such a lovely name. Do you want to tell us about him?

frasers I'm so sorry you're having a bad day. That moment of realisation that all is wrong will always stay with us. I remember the day we lost Sylvie-Rose all too well and how, looking back it seemed like a nightmare. And you just wanted to wake up and for everything to be back the way it was. Feck it, for me, I spent the day in my dressing gown, which oddly enough, had featured a lot in nightmares I'd had, you know those dreams where you're supposed to be in an important meeting and you're naked or in your pyjamas. So I kept expecting to wake up. And I never did.

And for you, losing your lovely Mum has heaped more grief on your head, and dredged up all the memories.

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Oh, sod the . Have some !

Morning x

Morning ladies xx

Today I will climb out of this black hole and try to be positive, anyone got a long ladder xx

Its freeeeeeeezing here....really, really cold!!!

Lew has been here since 7am and will be here till about 1.30pm!! He has brought two Nerf guns, hungry hippo's and a bag full of food...his 'imaginary friend' who just happens to be the singer Rhiana is also here I have to talk to him in an American accent and pretend to be here!! Well, I dont have to do it but he makes me

Thanks its just that time of the year again, I will keep busy I find that helps xx

Thinking about you Lavandes....I try to distract myself as well by keeping busy....sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't xxx

lavandes I am so sorry.

Just asked him about Chris Brown....he said 'I love him but I think he is a naughty boy...well thats what my Mum says.' He loves Rhiana and I sit here like a numpty talking to him in a rubbish American accent. He has talked since 7am and my ears are now starting to bleed...not sure if I can do two weeks of this 'Rhiana when my Mummy & Daddy get married in August do you want to come to the party?' Me: 'Oh gee yeah Lew that would be amazing....are we getting married as well?' Lew: Dont be daft Rhiana you are miles too old for me, but we can be best friends!!!'

i must make a flask of coffee and some sandwiches,(can't afford pasties anymore) and a dundee cake if fm is coming.

Going to work now, first day of new computer system and I can't remember much of the training, should be fun.

Lew is so funny shabs xx

No ds2 is not back till tomorrow. He's going to Gardaland today. Not sure what the educational value is, mind you but it's the sort of place he loves! The funny thing is, here in Ireland a garda is a policeman. So when I see gardaland, I imagine a Father Ted-esque amusement park for Irish policemen!

I am panicking hysterically a bit. DD1 picked up a snow globe photo frame, that I bought a couple of years ago, and when I looked at her she had a fleck of glitter on the corner of her mouth. The globe is still completely full, but has a small (tiny) amount of water underneath, so I guess it's got a leak, or she managed to dislodge the rubber stopper a bit. I'm dithering about phoning NHS direct. The globe is still full, so anything she got out, would have been tiny, but having googling it, I've read they put antifreeze in some, though I struggle to believe that they put antifreeze in something, and not have a warning on the globe. Bad, bad mummy.

Tami, even it it's toxic, the amount she has taken would be very tiny. Phone NHS direct to be on the safe side but I really wouldn't worry about it. And you are not a bad Mummy. It's just toddlers, they have no sense and lots of curiosity!