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Our Children budded on earth to bloom in heaven

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frasersmummy · 15/04/2011 08:12

I think we have had this title before but it seems appropriate for spring

I have started this thread in honour of all our children but particularly Fraser who would have been 7 today. Happy birthday son we still miss you dearly. You will always be our firstborn and we always remember you in our hearts

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shabbapinkfrog · 22/04/2011 07:48

Morning girls xx

Thinking about you Dee and sending my love xxxx

travellingwilbury · 22/04/2011 11:48

Morning all xx

Dee , still thinking of you xx

lavandes · 22/04/2011 16:23

So sorry dee it is just so unfair. xx

CazandBelle · 22/04/2011 17:36

I've just sat and silently cried through two episodes of EE. I had to make myself watch how they bought the whole baby swapping storyline to an end, I don't know why.

Its made me feel so broken. I thought Jessie.Wallace did an excellent portrayal of bewilderment and grief but watching them take their baby home to restart and the nightmare to be over was so hard. I wish someone could say to me 'here she is, it never really happened'

Just had a big cry on DH. Mother's Day was the last time I cried so hard, before that I can't even remember.

shabbapinkfrog · 22/04/2011 17:43

Oh Caz - I watched them and it almost tore my heart in two. How amazing would that be if all this was just a dream - or that someone had taken our precious babies and then returned them.

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frasersmummy · 22/04/2011 21:22

Oh dee .. you are in our thoughts and prayers .. what an awful thing for anyone to endure but you have been through so much already.. its just not fair.

I never watch ee but I curious re this ending .. I might try and catch it on iplayer

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lavandes · 22/04/2011 22:25

caz Please don't let EE upset you. I know that is difficult but just think how much good you are doing with Annabelle's fundraising day, you are being so brave and you and your family will do so much to raise people's awareness to how it is for parents to lose a baby. That is what is important, not a badly thought out TV programme. You are such a brilliant mum, and you have so much to give. Please focus on this. Hope this post does not upset you further. xxx

travellingwilbury · 23/04/2011 06:25

Good morning all xxx

shabbapinkfrog · 23/04/2011 07:06

Morning girls xx

I 'had' to watch EE - I had to check Tommy was back where he should be. I sobbed all the way through it and it has unsettled and un-nerved me, if that makes any sense. In my head I keep repeating 'this is not real, this is just a soap' but I cant stop watching it and thinking about it.

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shabbapinkfrog · 23/04/2011 07:45

Hiya Everlong. I am struggling with the aftermath of it all. The sight of Jack and Alfie talking last night was gut wrenching. xx

CheeseandGherkins · 23/04/2011 15:40

Afternoon all. Slept much better past two nights, thankfully although last night was difficult as some friends were talking about their new arrival (coming soon) and how he'd painted the nursery and the cot is arriving today etc and I just felt like screaming that I wouldn't be so sure but of course I didn't. I don't begrudge them their happiness at all, it's just hard to hear when it should be us too.

My lovely friend that I mentioned above has had another miscarriage too :( She went for a scan yesterday after heavy bleeding and pains, she was 11 weeks and I'm so sad for her. I'm trying to support her the best I can. Life is so unfair isn't it?

Just walked the dog in the lovely sunshine which was really nice. He's recently discovered the lake too, it's funny as he just wades in and walks along drinking!

I just haven't been able to watch EE at all since the storyline started as I think it's just far too close to home and totally insensitive. When we found out Scarlett was stillborn (so not the same as a cot death) the last thing I wanted was someone else's baby! I wanted mine.

Enough rambling, hehe, I think I could talk for England some days. Ok I'll stop now! Hope you're all enjoying the lovely weather and feeling ok. Today is a good day for me, so far.

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frasersmummy · 23/04/2011 18:10

The sun has just appeared here in the last few hours

I have started catching up with ee on iplayer.I really dont get what is going through the writers head... no bereaved mummy acts like that mad bint.!!!

I was assessing a guider who was trying to get a licence to take kids away on her own today. Thats the first time I have had to say no you will need to resit. I felt really bad but there were issues over safety and medicines, both of which to me are huge issues.

I think all of you would agree that parents would be glad to know that their kids are my number one concern, not the guiders' egos

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shabbapinkfrog · 24/04/2011 08:03

Morning girls xx

shabbapinkfrog · 24/04/2011 09:08

Sat here with a big grin on my face. Remembering Easter Sundays in the past. Matt would survey how many eggs he had and keep counting them and looking at them. Then on Sunday he would start the feast Grin

'Mam, me's got 8 Eggs - its awight if me eats 'em all today isin't it?'

'No love, if you eat all of them you will be sick!'

'You know me wont Mam.....Im gweat at eating chocolate eggs

CheeseandGherkins · 24/04/2011 10:02

Morning all. Hope you all enjoy today. Happy Easter! Having my parents over for dinner later, looking forward to that and enjoying the lovely sunshine again.

janedoe25 · 24/04/2011 11:25

Morning all, Shabba Matt made me smile too, he sounds like a proper wee comic!

Happy Easter everyone x

shabbapinkfrog · 24/04/2011 11:42

He didn't have a care in the world. He was number and letter dyslexic but couldn't care less. He loved girls, girls and more girls. Favourite film was 'Back to the Future' - favourite song was 'Pump up the Jam' and used to say (about Scotch eggs) 'I love the scotch but I dont like the egg!!' I long to see him again but I am proud and happy that I was am his Mam xx

janedoe25 · 24/04/2011 11:53

And im sure he is very proud of you! x

lavandes · 24/04/2011 12:17

Happy Easter to you all. Hope everyone has a peaceful day xx

I am being lazy and have just got up, spent the morning in bed reading the papers, eating toast and marmite made by husband (well trained husband Smile) will make him roast dinner later xx

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frasersmummy · 24/04/2011 12:37

Happy easter ... I am missing my oldest boy this morning .. I might go see him and take him a shiny cardboard egg.... mad me ?? probs

At this time of year I am reminded of this quote... God has written the promise of resurrection not just in books but in every leaf in Springtime

Be good to yourselves today and those of you with kids -- dont pinch theirk easter egss... not that hubby and I had one between us last night and re-arranged the others to cover our crime Blush

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lavandes · 24/04/2011 22:05

Hope you all have had a peaceful day. xx

You are not mad fm just missing your boy as we all are. xx

shabbapinkfrog · 25/04/2011 06:54

Morning girls xx

kazmus · 25/04/2011 08:54

morning ladies, hope you all had a lovely Easter, just coming to my place of refuge as only place I can let off steam! Have just spent the entire Easter stuck indoors visiting Dh relatives! 3 lousy days and not one mention of Sian, SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN SAIN SIAN..there I've said it, she existed and still is my number one thought. How dare you all ignore her, I dont want to listen to how well your bloody kids are doing, I want her back, I want to talk about her, I want someone to realise I dont want to share in all the trivial banter cos my heart is breaking, its 8 months today since she died and no one in this bloody family seems to give a shit. Rant over, feels slightly better for saying it out loud, now going to sit in garden and stew in my own juice! :(

travellingwilbury · 25/04/2011 10:53

Morning all x

Kaz people are shite sometimes . Do they ever talk to you about Sian ? Or mention her name ? It is so hard when you have got the "elephant in the room" and you just want to shout her name.

Big hugs to you xx

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