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Our Children budded on earth to bloom in heaven

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frasersmummy · 15/04/2011 08:12

I think we have had this title before but it seems appropriate for spring

I have started this thread in honour of all our children but particularly Fraser who would have been 7 today. Happy birthday son we still miss you dearly. You will always be our firstborn and we always remember you in our hearts

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lavandes · 24/06/2011 18:34

Sorry the message was for you Kaz xx

CheeseandGherkins · 24/06/2011 19:16

Evening all. Feeling a bit manic today. Dh is really struggling. His mum and sister are coming on a surprise visit tomorrow to chat with him. He said to her a few days ago that he doesn't want to live :(. I don't know what to do to help him.

Wishing a peaceful night and weekend to all. My friend's wife had their baby safely btw, a little boy, so I'm pleased for them.

CheeseandGherkins · 25/06/2011 04:33

Morning. Managed a few hours tonight, getting there with my sleep pattern again. Xx

shabbapinkfrog · 25/06/2011 07:43

Morning girls xx

Minione · 25/06/2011 13:08

Hi Everyone

Caz Hope today is going well. I'm assuming its too late to add Malachy but if you can its Malachy Aidan Morrin xx

Hope everyone is ok x

CheeseandGherkins · 25/06/2011 18:45

I'm so exhausted. Quick post from phone as mil and sil here. We went to see Scarlett and took some windmills and a lovely solar light with plaque from mil. It's beautiful. Posted a couple on fb but will try to upload them here later/tomorrow. Turned into a lovely day.
Feeling quite drained though. I have a toothache, been putting off a fulling for ages as a have a dental phobia and needles. I'm scared of feeling numb, never had one before.
Hope all are well xxx

CazandBelle · 25/06/2011 21:42

I'm absolutely gobsmacked and feeling very excited and emotional to announce that as of tonight (with plenty more still to collect from various places and the promise of part-matched donation from Santander) including pre-sold raffle tickets, justgiving online donations, money raised at my friends event at the same time today, everything we raised at fete today, our sponsored walk last week and various other cash donations we've been given offline, our SEMI FINAL total of fundraising for Sands in Anabelle's name is:

£4948.37

Beyond anything I could've dreamed of. I'm so in awe of everyone who has supported us.

I cannot wait to collect the rest and announce final figure after Santander have sent their money!

Bluetinkerbell · 25/06/2011 21:46

I feel very happy today Caz think your hug of this afternoon helped! together with the comforting drive through the pretty landscapes of England and Wales! Today was just what I needed! and SOOOO happy to see that total semi total amount!

janedoe25 · 25/06/2011 21:46

caz thats is amazing! Well done, Belle will be so proud! xxxxx

spilttheteaagain · 25/06/2011 21:51

Wow caz that is amazing! Well done, and thank you, as someone who has benefitted from SANDS, people like you are fabulous Smile

CheeseandGherkins · 25/06/2011 22:23

Well done caz

Feeling like I don't exist at the moment...

Bluetinkerbell · 25/06/2011 22:34

Cheese big hugs! x

spilttheteaagain · 25/06/2011 22:40

Cheese Sad. I just read back and saw your post about your DH. That must be so hard to hear. Are either of you getting any counselling or anything? Wish I could say something that would actually help. Keep posting if it helps, we're listening x

I just looked at your profile to see if you'd put the pics of Scarlett's garden up yet - your kids are gorgeous.

CheeseandGherkins · 25/06/2011 22:43

Oh My stupid phone, wasn't finished. It's so hard today. I don't even know why, I just looked at her tiny grave and wanted to sob, but couldn't as I was scared I wouldn't stop.

Certain people in life just don't acknowledge anything and it's so hurtful. I know some people have no idea what to say but something is better than nothing :(

Hope others are feeling better tonight xx

CheeseandGherkins · 25/06/2011 22:49

Blue and spilt sorry cross posts.

We fell asleep on the sofa when mil and sil left and only just woke half hour ago! Been a long day. Going to drink this tea and get the photos on my profile or uploaded or something.

Dh is waiting to see someone still, should have heard by now. That's why mil came today both worried about him. She lives a 3 and a half hour drive away too so don't see her that often. Trying to pursue him to go back to the dr in Monday.

Thank you both. I talk to much at times I know, I started to blog but haven't posted in a week or so, guess I should keep up with that xxx

CazandBelle · 25/06/2011 23:04

cheese where is your blog? I'm sorry you're hurting so much at the moment, I wish there was something useful to say, but I know only too well there is nothing at all to really say that will ease your pain. keep talking and posting here - there is no such thing as talking too much - only as much as you need too xx

CheeseandGherkins · 25/06/2011 23:32

caz my blog is here Just uploading the photos now, plus a few of the funeral flowers and one of Scarlett if people want to see her. I uploaded them and they came out all squashed so just doing them again now. Thanks, talking is all we can do isn't it :( My blog isn't massive at the moment and has been neglected a couple of weeks but I intend to update it tomorrow xx

CheeseandGherkins · 25/06/2011 23:47

Ok done it, Scarlett

shabbapinkfrog · 26/06/2011 07:16

Morning girls xx

CheeseandGherkins · 26/06/2011 08:55

Morning. Had the best sleep I've had in months last night. I was so exhausted I feel asleep on the sofa from 8pm until about 10ish and then got off again at about 2am but only just woke at 7.30 odd. I feel like I've actually slept for once :)

Thanks for the chat last night, feeling better this morning. We're off to London this afternoon, looking forward to visiting Brick Lane Beigel shop, it's simply amazing. Hope everyone had a peaceful night and has a good day today. xx

Minione · 26/06/2011 12:37

Well done, Caz, that's amazing! You must be so proud and I'm sure Belle is too.

Cheese - I'm sorry to hear about your DH, I think men feel they have to hold it together and bottle up. I hope he sees someone soon. WOuld that be the famous Beigels bagels? It is amazing, my best friend had her 30th at a club in Brick lane, in the space of 24hrs we had been to the bagel shop 4 times! Enjoy and have something with salt beef and gherkins for me!

TooImmature2BMum · 26/06/2011 15:08

Caz, that's an amazing total, well done!

Cheese - have been reading your blog and I love the way you write such stream-of-consciousness posts. It all comes straight from your heart and it's very moving. I hope your DH is feeling a little better today. Tell him complete strangers are worrying about his well-being and wishing him well!

CheeseandGherkins · 26/06/2011 19:44

Evening, have had a really lovely day, even after spending hours of it in traffic! Beautiful day, I find the sun really cheers me up.

Minione I'm beginning to think the same about men (I know it's a generalisation but still) as I know lots that are the same. I think seeing his brother today helped too as well as his mum and sister yesterday. Yes THE Beigel shop, it's amazing. I used to live in East London and it's one of the things that I miss a lot. Dh had salt beef but I can't as I'm a vegetarian! They are divine though :)

TooImmature Thank you, I will pass the message on. I wonder with blog if I waffle too much but I guess that's what they're for. It helps to just let things all out at times. Hoping that I'll be making some more upbeat posts on it soon. I'm feeling quite good today so I'm hoping that lasts too.

Wishing everyone a lovely evening xxx

shabbapinkfrog · 27/06/2011 06:50

Morning girls xx

shabbapinkfrog · 27/06/2011 08:33

Oh that lad of mine!!! He has a Maths test today......his teacher is 'fast tracking' the class so they can do their GCSE in Year 10 instead of Year 11.

He gets dressed....comes down a bit later than normal. We get to the front door and he says....

'I dont feel well Mum, I have got pains in my heart!!' I asked when he first got them. 'Its whenever I eat bread!!' I told him that it is heartburn and he has to slow down when chewing his food. Off he stomps, as only a 13 year old can, muttering on the way down the path 'Oh yes thats right, send me to school with heart problems....what kind of a Mum are you!!! When Im in hospital and the Doctors say how ill I am then you will feel bad!!'

I know he is trying to con me but wish he wouldn't use 'heart problems' as his con.

Bloody high school tests....too many of them if you ask me!