Sorry just catching up now.
spilt glad you think it helps :) Wrt PAOS, definitely agree, makes no sense, I even tested at 28 days!! Why?! Now I came on tonight, 31 day cycle that makes after 37 last time. I wish there was some pattern :( I was a little relieved this time actually, if I were pregnant it would have been almost the same time as I was with Scarlett and I'm not sure I'd have handled that. The dates worked out for that time (if I worked them right) for when I'd be 37 weeks as they said they'd induce around then. Hugs to you, the ups and downs are hard to deal with, the no knowing,
ppm sorry you've been so up and down, it's hard to deal with and I hope you manage to find more peaceful days.
fm such an awful thing to happen, huge hugs xx Can I add mine to that list? I'm not sure which dates though as I have a few :(
Decemeber used to be a lovely, happy month for me as I adore Christmas and was overjoyed with having my daughter due on Dec 23rd but we found out on Dec 2nd that she had died. I was induced the day before she was born, her birthday is 6th Dec. I last felt her move the night before we found out but I'm not sure if she'd moved in the night or not.
I still feel like it was my fault, I should have done something, I should have known. I feel so guilty.
Her funeral was Dec 29th too, awful month now :(
Caz It must be hard for you with Bow, that's a worry of mine, that I won't be the same again if I get pregnant. I worry about bonding, I worry about everything and it's not even happened yet. That would be really upsetting to me too with dh's mother. Belle is just as important as any other child xxx
jane I found the cons appt for the PM results extremely difficult, I felt anxious and nervous and I was shaking throughout. I could barely concentrate or think. I didn't take in the full results until the letter they sent out afterwards. It left me with questions to be honest as I just couldn't deal with it at the time. I really hope that the news is as good as it can be on the day and that you cope, will be thinking of you xxx
lavandes I've also thought the same, a parent shouldn't bury a child :( It's just not right is it? That poem is absolutely beautiful but so sad, and true. Think I will borrow for a facebook note. Some people just don't get it, they say don't listen to sad songs, or writings, etc but like that is going to make everything ok?! It's not as if it doesn't hurt anyway and if it helps to get things out then it's good I think. Keeping it all inside doesn't help. Thinking of you lots xx Lovely news, you have every right to be proud :) xx
Ilike wonderful news, congratulations xx
Shabba :( I can't imagine how hard it must be for you, I think you're an amazing woman, I hope tomorrow is an easier day for you xxx
Eggy :( I hope today was kind to you xx
It's been a hard night tonight, I don't know why, felt so many different things and I can't sleep. I just hate myelf for not being able to even hold my daughter, why couldn't I? I wish I had so much, I so nearly touched her, I remember that vivedly. Sounds awful but I was just scared that she'd be cold and that I would just break down. I almost reached out to hold her hand when the midwife was holding her but I didn't because I was scared. I feel so bad for not doing that. I carried her for 37 weeks inside me and then 4 days while she was dead :( I gave birth as well, at least it was fast. I'm sorry, don't want to make everyone else feel bad too. Just struggling a bit