Lottie {{hugs}} Whenever I hear that song I always think of your Jack.
It's such a hard time of year for us all isn't it? Such a grind. But I promise it does get easier.
This will be our 4th xmas without C.
the first was just bloody awful,
the second was odd because we had M by then and we felt like we had a reason to be thankful, however we were still in the early stages of grief.
the third felt more hopeful.
this year I now feel I have to make xmas special for us again, as we have a lot of xmas's to come and we owe it to M and the baby-to-be to make this a special time of year for them.
I say all this, however it doesn't take away the fact that there is a C shaped hole missing in our life, and there should be another chair filled at the xmas dinner table
But, looking back, xmas isn't so painful this year.
I am rambling, but I sincerely what I say gives others hope. For me, hope was and is so important to get me through the tough times.