Hello Bezzy, Hi Katiecubs, Hello everyone,
What a lovely new thread. It's good to be back.
Cant, you are very much in my thoughts today.
And, as Katiecubs said, I think this new thread will be a better one for all of us.
Linspins, how are doing? When is your house move? I hope it is all going through smoothly.
I have to say, I feel a little out of touch with the thread, so if I say ask something that's old news, I'm sorry...I'll catch up properly soon. It all moves so, so quickly.
Bezz, I'm sorry I wasn't here for you last weekend when the tears came. How are you now, my love? I wish I'd logged in then.
And Bee? Is your house abuzz at the moment? Are the radio-4-listening workmen gone?
Tree? Your name change confused me there a little bit. The ED is an amazing thing to do. Can I be nosey and ask to see Christening photos and your lovely Kath Kidston dress?
Justa - congratulations for boy3, very exciting.
Shangrila, did you ever get an answer to your acquired antibodies, anti-K worries? Sorry if I've missed this discussion on the thread. I will look back.
Eulalia - you must be in Spain right now. Hope it's sunny there,
Hi to Luckwinner, Mishta, Katiecubs, MrsVictor, pelvicflawed, Peanuthead, hope everyone's ok today. I'm sorry if I've missed anyone out.
I know it's been very tough recently. Just reading back the last few pages of the Thread III, I can feel the pain and sadness. For me, it's been nearly 4 and a half months and it really does get easier to laugh (first laughs for me were on this thread, I think) and to do other things again and function more normally. It comes back, but very slowly and you just have to take your own time.
I really have missed everyone here. I had to have some time out from thinking about what happened in order to get my wedding things together and had to put my mind in another head...or whatever, maybe you know what I'm trying to say. But, I've never been far away and I'm really happy to be back on this new thread now.
I have two pieces of good news. I found a job...finally. So, will at last, be out of the house in a couple of weeks time (is there an apostrophe there?). I realised that the past few months (it really is months already) have been made all the more worse by not having a place of work to go to. But, that's all in the past now.
...slight worries over the ethics of taking a job when I'm thinking about trying again very soon...only thinking, mind...but, I can't 'not' take a job on the basis that I 'might' fall pregnant and it 'might' work out this time. So, I suppose, here's hoping I have to have an awkward talk with my new employers in a few months.
The other thing is that I found a new wedding dress and it's a 'proper' one this time. All ivory and silk and gorgeous. I've had fittings and will probably get a tiara too. So, all is well there. We changed the venue and it all feels sufficiently different this time to not remind me too much of what happened last time...although, just writing that brings a tear to my eye. Maybe, it still is a bit too linked in my head.
A final 'funny - not ha-ha' twist of coincidences is that our wedding party (the actual wedding day is just a small do with family) with our friends is on my due date. It had to be, else too many people wouldn't have been able to come. So, the interwoven thread of my termination being caught up so closely with the wedding, will hopefully come to an end. I'll have the party and see it as the start of a new chapter. Never forgetting, of course, but there will be no more weddings or parties to coincide with traumatic and sad events after that day.
So, that's me. Can we go back to our cottage again - with a hearty fire and fluffly - fluffy even - blankets on settees. I'm sorry to hear the hard times people have been having recently. The change in weather and darker evenings don't help.
I'll just pop out and get some more logs for the fire.
Much love to everyone, xxx