To ask for a handhold I feel so alone

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I'm due to have a 6/7 week scan tomorrow after multiple miscarriages (double figures) and I've got period like cramps and bleeding.

I've been bleeding on and off for 2 weeks, no clots.

I feel so alone and I just want to cancel my scan in the morning. Time and time again I've sat in that waiting area, I've had to listen to the "I'm sorry" words, I've had to sit in the family room with a useless leaflet about miscarriage and a box of tissues.

I'm not religious but I could really do with some positive thoughts being put out there for me tonight, I'm not sure I can endure another loss 😢

I’ll hold your hand - that sounds very traumatic. Have you had any investigations into what might be causing the miscarriages?

A handhold from me. That must be very hard what you are going through.💐

I'm sorry for your losses. I'm going to do a small prayer for you and be thinking of you....

A handhold from me too. 💐

Thank you @HenryHooverIsMyDH and @Yellowrosesblue ♥️

NHS can't find any cause and I can't afford to go private so this is the last attempt. My heart cannot take anymore loss. If this isn't okay, I have to accept I'll never be a Mum.

Thank you so much @Doodledeedum and @ThreeblackCats ♥️

Sending you a big hug and hand hold

I'll hold your hand

Also here to offer support. You've been very brave to have kept trying after so many losses, not sure I could have. My mum said that she had bleeding for months when pregnant with my brother (hence she didn't realise she was pregnant at first), a friend of mine also had bleeding but ultimately safely delivered her little one (albeit a few weeks early). I would be scared too if I'd endured so much as you, but don't count yourself out yet. Hugs xx

I will hold your hand and put out all the positive thoughts for you.

Big hand hold from me, will have everything crossed for you tomorrow xx

I’m sorry you are going through this. I’ll add my prayers and hopes that things are ok.

Am here too, prayers and positive thoughts for you for tomorrow xxx

Sending you positive thoughts and good vibes. 💐

Here to hand hold. Thinking of you and sending positive thoughts for tomorrow. You are incredibly brave

Laid in bed sobbing, I forget how kind strangers can be sometimes. You're all amazing, thank you ♥️

Thinking of you xxx

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Sending you lots of love and hope 💐

I wish there were answers and solutions to infertility. I have a very close friend experiencing the same. It’s heartbreaking. It’s unfair. Don’t lose hope x

I don’t want to offer false hope in case you have tried it already, but I have a friend who had 5 or 6 miscarriages and eventually conceived and carried to term after treatment by Dr Shehata and his team.
I understand he has a very well respected private clinic but also accepts some nhs referrals via St Helier hospital in Epsom.
obviously, I very much hope that this pregnancy is the one for you, and that this is totally irrelevant info but just wanted you to know that very specialist help can sometimes come via the nhs.

Hoping and praying that all will be well for you x

Sending hugs. Wishing you a pleasant surprise at the scan tomorrow.

Oh bless that is such an early scan and that would be such an early miscarriage. Most poeple wouldn't yet know they were pregnant by now. I think you know that chances are the pregnancy has not worked this time. I wouldn't go to the clinic. Miscarriages are so sad, but so personal. You don't want to be in a clinic with lots of expectant mothers. I would avoid and curl up in bed for the day and allow myself a day of sadness.

You are incredibly strong to go through what you've gone through OP.
Whatever the outcome, you will be okay.

I'm hoping all is well and you see that heartbeat xxx

Sending you love and holding your hand.

You are not alone x