This is so embarrassing to post as I feel like I'm in the wrong here but I need some opinions.
DH loves blowjobs, I don't hate them, don't enjoy them but I will do it because he enjoys it.
The last few months have been difficult. I had an early miscarriage (DH was nothing but supportive during this time). Then he has been completely wiped out with covid for the past 2 weeks.
Due to being double vaccinated, I am still working, my boss and colleagues are aware he has it. He's been sleeping in the spare room and contact has been minimal.
Then, my uncle died unexpectedly Monday night, I received the sad news on Tuesday morning.
Today, on our temperature check upon entrance into the office mine was a little high and I'd woke up with a headache. My boss told me to keep an eye on my temperature and 2 hours later, it was flashing amber with a temperature of 38.7. My boss sent me home and asked for me to have a test done ASAP. I went straight to the local drive through test centre and I am waiting for results.
His first reaction to this was "you can't not work for 10 days, we can't lose the money". Then tonight he's got out of the shower and asked me for a blow job knowing that since about 5pm I've had a sore throat and feel shivery. I said no, now he's sulking and has ruined our evening catching up on a couple of tv shows we watch together.
I said to him "I feel rough" and he said "we don't have to have sex we can do other things you know" in a shitty tone.
My uncle has passed away unexpectedly, DH has had covid so I've been doing everything whilst he has been wiped out with it and now I suspect my test is going to come back positive, I feel fluey and do not want to have sex or give him a blow job! I'm not in the mood and I feel shite, mentally and physically.
He does this every now and then as I suspect he's not happy with the amount he gets.
How do I handle this? He always has a smart arse response ready for when I try and defend myself.