I always thank my lucky stars that I didn't end up as a prostitute. It was a close thing. Instead I was used and abused for free.
After the first few times you are raped, you stop trying to fight back, something dies inside. You know that it will happen no matter what you do or say. Often they seem to be enjoying it more if you show you don't want it.
It is such a horrific feeling of having no control, that sometimes it is preferable to pretend to yourself that you are actively choosing to do this. That way you can fake some degree of control. However, every single man who thinks he can throw you some money and use your body for sex, increase the damage to your self esteem.
I was attached to an abuser on fabswingers. We had reviews and it was always about the woman. Me. I cannot list the vile assaults and entitlements those men took. Women's bodies are meat. At sex clubs I could tell from eye contact who was there from abuse, women. We knew from the eyes. We never touched each other, but looked out for each other.
So yes I'm afraid, men or women paying for sex would be a massive red flag for me. I would consider them morally bankrupt and abusive.
OP, you can and will heal from the trauma. Whilst you need to acknowledge what you have been through, you need to hand the guilt back to those who wilfully abused your vulnerable position for their own needs. You need to forgive that traumatized version of you, who did what she needed to do to survive.
I had spent years trying to integrate the traumatized me in to who I now know I really am. I thought that accepting what I had done meant that it had to be part of the now me. It isn't. The traumatized me has a separate safe space inside me, where I defend her to the death. She was vulnerable and abused and she survived how she had to. I however am strong and capable and I can keep her safe.
I hope you understand what I mean. Sending you love and compassion ❤