I left my abusive husband three months ago, and we had to flee across the country.
He doesn't know where we are.
My eldest DS wants no contact with either him or his family (every type of abuse you can imagine, toward me and them).
My youngest DS is still young enough to have an idealistic view of his dad/GPs etc. He misses them, and I'm holding him while he cries, while at the same time crying inside because something which gives me so much relief (the fact that we're miles away) is the very thing causing my son stress. I feel guilty for being relieved.
I'm worried sick about Christmas. Its going to be hard anyway because they'll be away from what they know. The relocation (sudden, rushed, expensive train journey) wiped me out, and I just can't afford Christmas this year.
I'm exhausted, everything is starting to sink in now that I'm out of there, and I know I need help- but I feel I can't seek help because I can't drop the ball where the boys are concerned: they're on waiting lists for therapy, and I need 100% of my focus to be on them, seeing as I'm the only one they have know- we know no one around here and I have no family- and I uprooted them in the first place.
I'm failing like he always said I would, aren't I?
Please or to access all these features
Please
or
to access all these features
AIBU?
Please reassure me I've done the right thing...
222 replies
NothingHasBrokenMeYet · 24/11/2019 02:03
OP posts:
Please create an account
To comment on this thread you need to create a Mumsnet account.