To not bother with tomorrow's job interview because I can't even cope not working

[sanssherif]

Brief history
Well qualified good job
Divorce, during unplanned preg. Now left alone no friends no support.
Disabled dd age 12.
Have had 2 years off work, dd2 is 3.
Applied for competitive but lower level role, was excited by the role and thrilled at the interview!
Its been a shit week back to school, my exH has given me the silent treatment, dd1 isnt coping and still awake (autism) and dd2 has just been sick everywhere.
I've been recently drinking more and am getting depressed at the no interaction/general skivvy mum role.
Really cannot be bothered to go, doesnt seem much point. Just want to crawl into a hole.
AIBU?

How do you think you are failing them?
You are doing this for all of you.


Again you are no failure sweetheart

So today i enrolled for a funded masters degree and met the course leaders. Quite excited!
I get a small bursary so have come off benefits, rang them just now.
Feeling a bit scared but its a good feeling going forwards instead of backwards.
Still gutted about the job but hey.

Im taking it a day a time.

Congratulations!
You are going forwards, try not to look back x

Fantastic news. Please believe us all when we say you are amazing

I genuinely believe that this course is what’s meant to be, not the job and I’m sure in a few years you’ll look back and be so happy with the decisions you’ve made.

I hope you managed to talk to your friend about the babysitting. If it’s not every night I’m sure there will be someone you know and trust who won’t use it against you that can help.

Hope so.
Ive got a few people on board. And have managed to negotiate some more flexible stuff.
If i do well they may fund me to do a phd after a year.

That sounds really exciting! Well done on getting the funded place.