Congratulations on the month @Determineddoris ! Sorry to hear you're feeling flat and deflated though - agree with everything that @Amdone123 said. Keep plodding on - hopefully a new challenge/project/interest will come along that will help.
I made myself complete the piano practice that I had set myself on my newish productivity app last night before having a glass of wine so I didn't end up having one until about 8 pm. I know I said I wouldn't have one at all but...that as the prize. Slept all night despite my 2 hr nap.
I would like to go back to 'not drinking at home' [unless entertaining - which almost never happens]. I don't see how I can begin to tackle my other issues if I don't - namely how fat I've become, which leads to a whole host of other less the optimal consequences. Reluctance to exercise is one and feeling exhausted too often.
I'm not starting the testing part of ZOE until August but there is nothing to stop me making a more serious attempt at changing my diet before this. I know someone asked me before what it was in a nutshell but I'm struggling to do that properly. Just cut and pasted this from somewhere else:
The Zoe programme, or Zoe 'diet' as it is being dubbed, wants to reteach us how to eat in line with our biology. It does this by offering at-home testing of blood glucose (via a continuous glucose monitor), blood fat (via a finger prick test), and the gut microbiome (via a stool sample) to assess how you personally metabolise foods, mainly carbs and fats. Zoe then uses this information to provide guidance via an app on how to make better food choices to suit your unique metabolism.
We'll see. It was pretty expensive and I'm not entirely convinced it is worth the cost but I really, really need some motivation (and a couple of colleagues and a friend are doing it and seem happy). I think I will need to make extra effort to actually lose weight though.