Day 1 for anyone just starting out

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Hi all. This is my day 1. I have joined some other threads for support but thought I would start a new one for anyone just starting out on this journey. I have a drink problem. It got worse over lockdown.i have had day 1 before and failed but this time I am starting off prepared. I have books to read. I have joined Mumsnet for support and have told my family and friends.

Ahhh I had a pita typed and I sneezed (a non covid its grand it's only a normal sneeze kind of sneeze)

Anyway day 59 here, delighted with myself. Aiming for 66, forgot why but it's the time it takes to really break/change a habit. I can then get myself something.

I bought new work clothes, just casual stuff but enjoying paying more attention to making an effort for myself. DH thinks I'm having an affair I'm the only one from my team of about 52 in so doesn't understand why I'm dick-y-ing myself up. New focus, he gets it really. I got my first compliment yesterday. 'WOW you look really good, working from home must really suit you ? ' lol, i just took it 'why thank you very much, and no I go into the office every day, wave my husband and kids off, have total silence ALL DAY, quiet coffee breaks, my lunch handed up to me, dont have to answer my phone as my boss is stuck at home and wouldn't have a clue. I can cough, sniff and do cartwheels if I like and no one is glaring at me. Its really good for my mental health getting away.

Writing very wise words, you must really look forward to your running club, escapism. Right that's my new goal, 5k park runs of they start them up, I'm going to kick myself up the arse this weekend You seem to have loads of lovely things planned, what a shame and yes I'm over it aswell, thank god no xmas parties.

Ymna dont you dare slip because of in laws. I'm sorry your having so much trouble there. Why do relatives interfere, cause trouble, hope you get your support. Dreading the winter with the kids sniffles but it seems there is common sense in the schools here and there are no issues if they dont have main symptoms. And a lot more people are actually having tests (I'm very naive) its seems the complete opposite of the UK, a lot of not admitting your waiting on results and slyness! Anyway, I'm not exactly exposed with my boring life

Best go and sort the bloody lunches out, I'd love a Mary Poppins

Hi all just checking in before bed glad to see everyone is staying sober whilst dealing with kids/school/work and husband's. That is quite the miracle.

Fuuucccckkkk. I really want a drink This is the worst I have been. It's Friday night ffs and I want wine, or prosecco. Not happy.

In other news to make you laugh. This morning I walked ds to school. It's about a 15 min walk. Halfway there my flip flop broke, so I had to walk the rest of the way with one flip flop on and the other off. Everyone was looking at me as if I was on some horrific walk of shame 😂😂

Oh writing that is funny, what did your DC say. Mine are always embarrassed by me it seems. Have you got any nice drinks or treats in? Can you go for a walk or have a bath. You know this will pass like it has before. It is never worth it.

He was a bit confused 😂 he's only just 7 so not quite at the mortified stage yet but there was a little glimpse of it!!

I've poured an AF fizz. It's never tasted more like appletise!

I won't give in but Jesus it's hit really hard and would have been so easy to give in. I did think it was going a bit too well

Hi all I'm back. Previously I was Noelle66. Well despite me not enjoying that first glass i spiralled our of control again. It was ok until yesterday when I drank on an empty stomach and was sickI was so pleased with myself doing a month af but obviously cannot regulate at all so here I am at 5.30 in the morning checking back in to go af again. I know I can do it I just need to stick with it forever not just a month! Hope you are all well.

Morning everyone, day 62. Writing that is very funny just be glad your child is only 7 so still thinks your terrific even with only 1 working flip flop. I have had days like that too, I really was tempted to throw in the towel on bad days and quite angry with myself for letting alcohol take over.

Oh joysmoy (noel) reset again, it's an awful feeling. I read other threads, there is an old one I've just read that was very inspirational and just keeps reminding me what I could lose. I'm not thinking long term but I know it will be, I'd go insane otherwise. Hope your ok, its so hard

Ymna it was an acquaintance that complimented me, but DH did do it in a round about way. We are quite good at gentle comments rather than gushing. It means more then. Myself and v healthy son 7 have bad colds, I thought a seal had moved into his room last night. DH was completely panicked, 'he says he cant breathe, should we get and ambulance' yeh DH let's do that and tell them to bring him to a + e for a blocked nose. That knocked the run out, but I'm determined (sort of) next week.

Lovely to hear from you Rupert, we are all doing bloody great

Hows everyone else?

The thread is 'need a little support'

Right I'm going on the bike to get the Sunday indo, I'm like bambis granny on a bike

Thanks for the support guys,I'm sorry to hear about the colds . Two of us have had nasty colds as well. I'm feeling surprisingly ok this morning just upset with myself

Hi all! Just a quick check in, I'll write more later when I've got time but wanted to say hi. @joysmoy welcome back, we're all here for you obvs, dust yourself off and let's get cracking again. You live and learn. Next time you think I'll just have one glass of wine, you might remember this and be stronger. You're doing fine and you're back on it now with renewed focus.

We're on our way to Devils punchbowl for a walk with the children. Gorgeous day. I'm on day 27. Can't believe it!!! Nearly 30 days WHOOP

Well done writings and thanks for the support

Hi there

Hope it's ok if I join.

I used to drink randomly, never much at home until lockdown. I would be a binge drinker prior to lockdown, drinking way too much on a night out, last one to leave etc but that could be once a month and I might not drink for weeks at a time. During lockdown I've started to drink way more, drinking mid week, earlier in the evening, drinking more as I didn't have to be out of the house the next day. Anyway my tolerance is gone way up, I used to have one bottle of cava between a Friday and a Saturday night, now I need two in the fridge for one night. I don't even feel as drunk anymore.

I have decided I'm sick of it. I'm sick of organising my week around alcohol without realising it, thinking about when I'll drink, when I'll do things, when I'll be hungover and I've had enough of it. I've been going through a tough time lately with my mental health and I don't want alcohol to be a factor in that anymore, the anxiety, the day after blues. I run quite a bit so I am ok weight wise but I definitely have put up a bit of weight, 5lbs or so and my food choices the day after are never great.

I want to reset my relationship with alcohol, my tolerance and to deal with the triggers where I want to drink (when I'm anxious, life stresses, Covid anxiety, boredom, a sunny day). So I'm aiming for 30 days to start with and see how I go.

Just wanted to join in and talk about it if that's ok.

Yes @AutumnAlready more the merrier and we seem to have lost a few along the way so there's not too many of us so it's always good to have a slightly busier thread to spur us all on.

My food choices the day after were always SO bad too. I'm a runner too 🙂 is it your day 1 today?

Anyway just stopped for a break on our walk so back to it now. More later.

Welcome autumn I've just come back to the thread after disappearing for a couple of weeks and drinking. Today is my new day 1(previously did a month off and thought I'd be ok to self regulate but obviously not in my case!)

Hi everyone, haven't checked in for a while.
I'm day 34, I've thrown myself in to the AA program.
I am an alcoholic, and I'll never have a positive relationship with alcohol
It's all good though, I feel so much better
Hi to @AutumnAlready, you mention anxiety, mine has massively reduced since not being hungover constantly, my sleep cycle has come back yey!!
@joysmoy dont beat yourself up, just set a goal every day not to drink that day, its the best you can do
@OrchidJewel well done on 60+ days
Hi to everyone so nice to see your all doing well x

@Ynwa1234 5 weekends!! Good for you.
I want to shout from the rooftops how much healthier you can feel with out alcohol it's such a brilliant feeling isnt it

@writingsonthewall well done, were roughly at the same stage !
Sorry anyone ive missed, I've not caught up properly on last couple of pages

Well done newer and ynwa you are all amazing