rachel well done for coming back to it in July and still being here. I think that lockdown will have had that affect on lots of us. So easy to fall into old habitual patterns that we believe comforts us.
I'm already excited about the prospect of being dry again! Which is much different to how I would have felt on day 3 years ago. I am aware it's a weekday though which isn't that unusual for me these days. Friday is my anniversary and my 50th is in September so a few challenges ahead. I even thought about waiting til after my birthday but I've realised there are always going to be events to celebrate and hard times to get through.
Years ago 3 days would have felt a massive achievement.
It kind of gets easier each time.
I did the same with veganism.
I am a life long vegetarian who wanted to be vegan for moral reaaons but found it hard to give up certain things out of habit. I tried it once in my 20s and failed almost instantly. Because...well...cheese!
But then over the last decade I have dipped into times without dairy and done veganuary a good few times. But always went back.
And then this year after veganuary i have just settled into a good healthy vegan diet and i don't feel I'm missing out. I suppose I've made new habits so it doesn't seem difficult anymore. Yes, sometimes i think that cheese looks good or fancy a poached egg but it's just a thought and it passes.
And i kind of think its like that with alcohol. In my 30s I couldn't imagine that I would ever not drink during the week as routine or that my consumption when I did drink would dramatically reduce. But after doing dry January and working hard to have dry periods, short and long, even though I have gone back to drinking I have made lots of progress in reduction. And I hope that this time i just naturally fall into it being an easy habit. I feel it's time.
So this thread is perfect. Not that I will not drink for a week or a month but that I will work towards being forever free.
One day at a time.