Yes think there’s a lot of truth in this. Also, if her mother has a very traumatic birth with her perhaps she couldn’t have any more children and added to LL’s sense of superiority? She may have been overly spoilt as a result growing up or had pressure put on her to live up to high expectations. Her wall art with words ‘Shine like a diamond’ and ‘Leave sparkles in your path’ or similar words to that affect affirm your theory that she believed she was special. I think sickeningly that being at the heart of the drama and getting sympathy etc fed her ego and made her feel in control.
From a psychological point of view it does indicate covert narcissism:
“One study found that people with narcissistic personality disorder are more likely to have grown up with parents who were highly focused on status and achievements.3 Because they were often made to feel superior to other children, the belief that they are special and more valuable than others may persist into adulthood.”
What Triggers a Covert Narcissist? It is not clear, however, why narcissistic behavior is sometimes displayed in covert rather than overt ways. Some situations that might trigger a covert narcissist include:
- Being ignored
- Feeling disrespected
- Threats to their ego
- Feelings of shame
- Being around high-status people
- Feeling less attractive or less educated than others
- Having less of something than others
- Not getting the attention they think they deserve
- Jealousy
- Lack of control
The above would also explain LL’s frantic scribbles of ‘Not good enough’ and ‘I will never marry or have a family’ etc. True narcissism is a strange disorder where although the person has a sense of superiority, there is underlying insecurity.