Suicide ***trigger warning*** how do I keep my child alive

[Iimaginethiswillbefun]

I need some help please. And please please no judgement.

My daughter is so, so unhappy. She doesn’t want to be alive. She just wants to go to bed and not wake up.

She hates everything about her life, everything she struggles at college with friendships, she is so lonely. She doesn’t want to be here.

I worry about her constantly. I’m at work and I think about her non stop. But I have to go to work I can’t afford not too.

She is on an anti depressant but it doesn’t seem to be working. I have gone back to CAMHs again but she doesn’t engage with them.

She told me she doesn’t know how much longer she will be alive for. I am a nervous wreck. And the most awful thought came to me. If she doesn’t want to be here and really doesn’t want to be here, how do I keep her here am I just torturing her by keeping her here. I’m in foods of tears even typing this. I’m at the end of my tether. More than anything I want her to see the positivity in life but she just doesn’t.

Help me and please no judgement.

I wanted to update on my daughter. As I had a few private messages over the last couple of years.

She quit uni, is hideously depressed. Has not one single friend. She is on the pill to help her periods.

She has tried to get a job but gets rejected constantly. These rejections just add to her shitty feelings about herself. I am scared to go to work most days.

Hello again @Iimaginethiswillbefun

I've replied to this thread before but have name changed since then.
Is your DD taking still taking meds for her depression? If one doesn't work then please encourage her to try another, there are lots of options nowadays.
It's scary having to switch but when you hit the right one they can make such a difference.
We have been where you are now and are slowly coming out of the other side. There is hope although I know it often feels bleak.

Oh no that's super scary. Has she been on the pill long? It made my niece very depressed. So it's worth checking that isn't making her worse.
I'm so sorry it didn't work out.
Can she volunteer in a charity shop? Then she will get retail experience and working with the public will give her confidence.
Not trying to be trite. It's an awful situation 💐

Please check our drticm on fb/ instagram. If anyone can help your daughter, I believe it's her. Wishing you all the best

Has she had blood tests. B12, iron, vitamin D, folic.

Get them done privately if your GP won’t help.

Medication review with GP

Get her some proper professional careers advice. Apprenticeships local to you might be a better option. She can be a part of a team and a valuable team member.

Do things together, films, walks, crafts, gardening, baking.

Over the last couple of years a few very kind members on here have private messaged me.

So here is an update. Dd has a good job now she has been in for a while, she lives independently from me but close enough for me to go and help her every where I need too which is most days. She has turned a corner. We still have some very very tough days and weeks but she is still here and is a fighter. She still doesn’t have many friends but she tries new things now and I believe she will get there.

Mostly I’m posting this for anyone who feels the same way I have done. And thank you for all your love and support those that have dm’d me.

That is so good to hear! Well done, OP. Long may it continue to improve.

Things change, she's only 16.

In this instance, they have changed a great deal. OP first posted five years ago.

@Iimaginethiswillbefun this is such better news. Thank you for the update. It has been heartbreaking reading your story across the years.
Her living independently is such a great step - for both of you.
I really hope you have time to look after yourself x

Textbook example as to why OP’s posts should be read 🙄

@Iimaginethiswillbefun You have supported her so well 💐 She has come on amazingly - well done to you both x

That is wonderful
And great for updating, shows others there can be light at the end of the tunnel

I missed your original post but just wanted to say well done to you for your unwavering love and support of your daughter, what an incredible lady you are. Hopefully your Dd will continue to flourish xx

Oh my. Thank you OP, how very kind of you to come back and share this. My best wishes to you both.

Exactly this. What a super mum you are.