I’m feeling so uneasy about the way normal, everyday life is setting up to change in the world and how little I feel able to control it. It’s horrible and I am having trouble trying to reconcile my own thoughts and fears about how things are going to be going forward. I really really don’t want to live the rest of my life under these conditions, anyone else?
Rather naively I thought that with an apparently successful vaccination programme and the promised easing of restrictions this summer, the covid fear would start to subside and more people would get back enough of their lives to mean proper resistance to any future suggestions of lockdowns and restrictions. But the latest Boris and the Doom crew announcement has shown that too many are still feeding from the fear train and will happily be accepting the upcoming propaganda trail all the way up to more restrictions and lockdowns.
I have also been reading about the new EU health pass which begins on 9th June. Thankfully they have not gone as far as making them a vaccine passport but everyone must now have one to access normal life and it will now record that you are either fully vaccinated OR have recovered from covid in the past 2 months OR have had a negative pcr test within the last 72 hours of whatever it is that you are trying to access. Interestingly, it seems each EU country are applying this pass to different parts of normal life to each other. France, for example, have said that there must not be a two tier society and so the health pass will not be applied to everyday things such as shopping, going to the hairdressers, to the cinema or restaurants. It will instead be required for larger scale events like theatre shows, large gatherings for exhibitions or sport events. Austria looks the opposite and is applying it to eating out or going to the hairdressers!
BUT I don’t want to live my life like this! As I am not in a risk group and have had and recovered from covid with no issues, I didn’t really want to be vaccinated at the moment. But equally, I feel forced to think about it because otherwise I will forever be queuing up at a lab to get a swab shoved up my nose just so I can go to an exhibition! This forced coercion really puts me off more. In addition, I think it looks inevitable that they will be vaccinating children and I really don’t agree to that when there is no risk to them of covid and yet unknown risks of having a new vaccine. I believe this because the “health pass” is for all persons over the age of 11.
Unless those aged 12-18 are equally going to be at the lab getting swabbed every other day just so they can participate in school or club events, it is obvious to me that the powers that be have already decided that children will be vaccinated.
As I said at the start, it just feels that this really is going to be the “new normal” and it won’t just fade away after another year or so when covid becomes endemic across the world and I feel so unhappy and powerless about it. Most of all though, I don’t want this world for my DC either. I want them to have the freedom of travel and life exploration they should have without forever being treated like they are disease carrying lower humans.
If anyone has any suggestions as to how I can accept and get over this and move on I would be most grateful because right now I can’t shake this horrible uneasy feeling that there really is a higher plan behind all of this and our lives are just never going to be the same again! 