Is anyone else just right on the fking edge?

[asparagusspears]

I can't be the only one on the actual verge of losing my shit altogether right now?

Why is everyone else so calm?

This stupid woman in Scotland is closing everything down again, putting my job at risk again, we all know for a lot longer than what they have said it will be, leaving kids trapped indoors with nothing to do in the darkest, wettest, coldest months of the year, money is already tight and my employer's patience is already thin on the ground, I am already working throughout the 'holiday' period, there have been no holidays this year, no breaks for any of us, I have two disabled parents who cannot do anything without me helping them to achieve it (example - my dad's television "isn't working" ie he's pressed the wrong button, so I need to go over there and fix it for him) my beloved dog is terminally ill, my OH is absolutely on my last nerve and all he cares about is our friends backing out of the new years party that had been planned, now he's pissed off he'll be stuck in with me, my MIL is an absolute arse from hell, and I have just had e-fucking-nough and it feels like I am the only one who is pissed off and angry and tearful?

Why is everyone else so shruggy and "oh well" and it's just what we have to do, and well that's 2020 for you and at least this, and at least that...?

Why is no one else ready to punch the next person they see???

I spend half my life on the phone to people.

Many of them are really flicking angry. You are not the only one!

Autocorrect doesn't like swearing. Fucking fucking fucking.

I'm with you, incredibly fed up with everything now.

I’m with you OP. I think one of the most depressing things is how many people support this lunacy (and the Nic-tator- for those of us in Scotland)...

Yes. I keep typing angry replies to Facebook posts and then deleting them because it’s not worth it.

I’ve just seen a really goady Facebook post by North Yorkshire Police, (who have been massively overstepping their authority) blaming all ills on “Tier 3 residents”. Agh, put the keyboard down and back slowly away ...

So many people, so close to losing it, all the time.

@asparagusspears

It's sound like you're having a spectacularly shit time, like the Facebook meme says, 'we may all be in the same storm, but not all in the same vessel'

Fingers crossed for this shitshow to improve soon.

I'm totally on the edge but have to spend my day reassuring my overworked team that "it will all be fine" I could curl up and hide, kids home now with no likely return, eldest in 5th year and I have no faith in the highers process. Husband in hospitality so home ALL the time now.

In Scotland too and hate how things are being handled here

@JellyBabiesSaveLives me too I keep having to stop myself because I know it won't help.

And yes @DownstairsMixUp also the people who think it's an extended holiday or who are looking forward to 'doing nothing' we've been fucking doing nothing all year!

The naivety of those who think this is just until January 18 also astounds me.

I literally right now feel like having one of those toddler tantrums on the floor flailing arms and legs and crying and screaming in the hope that someone will scoop me up and make it all better but then I realise it's me that does the scooping up and making things better round here ...

Folk are fed up, just get over it.
It is what it is, tantrums won’t help

I think more people are with you OP than not. Anyone who says they're not are, in my opinion, extremely privileged or lying.

For the most part people are just putting a brave face on it but nearly everybody is showing stress in different ways

I am too but and not really showing stress deep down, I just feel Flat fat & fed up

my hair is falling out and my eyesight has gone quite bad which I think is stress (nothing apparent in recent tests).

Autocorrect doesn't like swearing. Fucking fucking fucking. Mine does. It suggested Cunt the other day.

Completely with you. We’ve had a shitty shitty shitty year, topped off by my husband’s final client of the year (gardener) refusing to pay him because it was £5 an hour more than he expected....I am absolutely done. No holidays this year, no breaks whatsoever, having to go into savings just to get by (very lucky to have any savings at all I know) but now I just feel hopeless for the first time in all of this.

Have your tantrum by all means and I will join you xxxxx

@nothingcanhurtmewithmyeyesshut

Yeah im pretty fed up

Ive got covid, so does DP and my mum just died. Ive had to stop my dd1 coming for Christmas, i cant even get some paracetamol without putting on one of mt friends to collect it.

I'd quite happily forgo the wholE of Fucking Christmas if it meant i get my mum back.

Cant even believe people were contemplating fuckibg new year parties

I’ve just seen a really goady Facebook post by North Yorkshire Police, (who have been massively overstepping their authority) blaming all ills on “Tier 3 residents”.

Is that about people going to York? I know a few people that have been going a couple of times a week for nights out in a mini bus - this is how it spreads! My niece being one of them! Whereas my sister works in intensive care and is genuinely concerned they don’t have enough staff for an increase in patients.

@DownstairsMixUp op sounds like she's letting off steam, we all react differently, is that ok with you. I'm hiding from my kids all day paralysed by broken plans and everything seems a bit much for me. that's my response. everyone is different and circumstances sound pretty terrible for a lot of us.

What's the point in wallowing in this misery. You need to adapt what life is like now and make the most of it: lovely walks, new Covid friendly hobbies, new years drinks/party on Zoom etc. It's not going to last forever and you need to get over it really. Sorry to be blunt but you're making yourself miserable.

we all have our moments...I just look at the queues in Kent on the news, blooming brexit looming, this new strain and mysteriously I can't keep smiling 100% of the time. I can pull it out the bag for the kids and for the sake of carrying on but when things are shite its ok to say it on MN imho to all of us struggling right now

Wow there's no need for that, i wasnt trying to trump anyone. Just joining the pity party . Everyone IS struggling, for some, not having pigs in blankets might be the straw that breaks the camels back.

But yeah, it does kind of trump me - and im so very sorry for your loss, i cant even imagine