anyone awake? Please chat with me for an hour

[WLmum]

Hello, is anyone awake and willing to chat with me about anything at all.
I'm waiting for daybreak, and then for school drop off time, so I can go and be with my truly amazing, so loved dm while she passes away. I am heartbroken. Been awake most of the night wondering if she's going to hold on long enough for me to with her.

Anyone else up? Tell me what you're up for and help me pass the time. Please.

I'm up, OP. I am so sorry to hear this. I'm offering a hand hold.

Tell me anything you'd like!

Hiya. I am sorry about your mum. I hope that you get to say goodbye. I am up because breastfed baby had a good feed, then rolled around for a bit and woke me fully. Hopefully I will drop off again soon.

I'm up - on a night shift.
Has anyone read any of the first reviews of the Downton Abbey film? I'm wondering whether I should book tickets for this weekend?

I am also up OP, so sad to hear your situation I’m sitting waiting for the right moment to try and wrangle my 2yo back into his cot.

I'm up and sending love. Currently hooked up to breast pump in hospital which is exactly as glamorous as I'd always imagined it would be.
Hope you are with your mum when she passes and that she is comfy.

@GrandmaSharksDentures I was thinking the same. Let's do it!

Op, tell us anything!

Thank you so much. I'm on my phone so difficult to check back to name check but thank you.
She has been such a huge part of my life, I can't even begin to imagine how I'll get by without her. As a mother, I know there is no love like it. As lucky as I am, with a good dh and 3 lovely dds, I know no one will ever love me the way she did. Be genuinely interested in all the minutiae.
I've been balancing the last few days the needs of my dds to have me supporting them while they face the loss of the adored gm, with my own need to be with her in her final days.

Those breastfeeding nights can be so long and exhausting but I look back on them with fondness. I enjoyed it being just me and that one dd in the moment. Like a secret club.

@WLmum I can only imagine how difficult this might be. My mother is my best friend and I know that eventually that horrid day will come.

How old is your mother, if I may ask?

@WLmum tell us something about your beautiful dds. How old are they?

I'm sorry you're coping with this. It's a terrible thing to go through.

Would you like to talk about her, or something else?

prosecco she's 74. She's had terminal cancer for 4.5 years so we knew this day would come but in the end it's come so fast. We've been lucky in that she's been relatively well for much of her diagnosis but in the last 2 weeks her body has just given up.
She's also my best friend.

Handhold through the night for you. I'm trying to decide whether to make a career change so sleepless, going grey overnight, etc.

I’m up. Feeding Dd (6weeks). She’s just fine a massive poo. So we’ve done an early morning emergency bath.

I’m so sorry about your mum.

Am also listening to the handmaids tale. Haven’t watched any of the show yet. But it’s on my maternity leave watch list.

Sorry to hear about your mum @WLmum
This time of night always seems to be the hardest to be awake. I’m also feeding a baby. Do you want to talk about her or be distracted?

@GrandmaSharksDentures I gave up on Downton a few years ago so can’t help there. I did once go to a party in the grounds of Highclere Castle though.

I'm awake OP. We are on holiday so 2 hours ahead. My one year-old is making noises downstairs so no sleep-ins for us... 🙃

So sorry about your Mum, OP. Such a harrowing time for you. I lost my mum 10 years ago and I still think about the morning she died all the time. It was so painful yet bittersweet as she was really unwell.

Thinking of you today 💐

@WLmum sending all my good thoughts and prayers for your mom and your family! You're so brave and everything will be okay in the end! You sound like such a kind person

Dds are 12,9 and 6. Telling them on Saturday evening that we were losing her was the hardest conversation I've ever had. They visited Sunday and yesterday after school and said their goodbyes. They were amazing. They stroked her gently and told her they loved her. They left a couple of favourite toys to watch over her.

@WLmum you have raised 3 amazing, kind and selfless daughters. This must be so nice! I don't have any children yet (we are getting married next year), but I am dreaming to have two daughters

I’m awake. My son had a nightmare so he’s now in my bed and I’m wide awake googling because I have a first date on Wednesday and I’m a bit nervous and don’t know what to wear.
Holding your hand, my mum died of cancer years ago now so I appreciate what you’re going through

Oh well done WLmum DC. Brave, caring and compassionate.

Oh op have a hug from me.

Db is with her overnight and has promised to call if he feels she's slipping away. I only live 5 minutes from her so could run over.
The bit I'm most anxious about is after dh goes to work at 6 and then I'll have the dds until after drop off, so I'll get to dm about 9.15. I won't be able to run to her during that time.
Dhs work are arseholes and he's been debating whether to go in or call emergency leave.

Your daughters sound lovely, you’ve clearly been able to take the love your mum gave you through to the next generation.