anyone awake? Please chat with me for an hour

[WLmum]

Hello, is anyone awake and willing to chat with me about anything at all.
I'm waiting for daybreak, and then for school drop off time, so I can go and be with my truly amazing, so loved dm while she passes away. I am heartbroken. Been awake most of the night wondering if she's going to hold on long enough for me to with her.

Anyone else up? Tell me what you're up for and help me pass the time. Please.

So glad you're there.

Echoing others- songlad you’re there x

So glad you are there

Thank you everyone for your hand holds, kind words and cat pics. Shame I couldn't get mine upload.
We've had a little chat, and I told her that dd3 asked me to buy her a sheep costume so she can be a sheep at her funeral. Sheep have always been their thing since an early chemo made her hair fall out and grow back white and curly! She enjoyed that thought.

Oh that made me smile, please please let your dd be a sheep at the funeral.

I hope you’re ok OP. Just read the thread and have to comment to say what a lovely mother yay have and the love shines through. She has clearly been a wonderful person and shaped your life. She will live on because of her goodness.

sassh she most certainly will be a sheep! Costume winging its way

Just reaching out a hand from here OP.

We had this with dad - my last memory is of him chortling away when he saw me. I’m not sure why but I like to think I had some myself in my hair or had my jumper on inside out - that would have amuses him.

Your mum is lucky to have so much love around her.

I had a rather large Christmas tree decoration in my hair at dads funeral.

For some reason I would always end up tying up my long hair and popping in a decoration plucked off the tree at Christmas, and mum had left the latest one on the dresser in my old bedroom (it was summer when dad died). People probably thought I’d completely lost the plot (it was a spectacularly mad looking silver coloured turtle dove).

Love that lord

Hi op, another handhold from me.
When my mum died, the warden in her sheltered housing told me my mum had felt loved. She said not everyone who dies feels like that. It brought me great comfort.
Your mum will feel loved too.
Hold onto that.

Pleased to hear that your DH took the leave and you’re with you mum now.

I am so sorry. I had this awful time a few month ago. Sadly I missed her actually dying but I knew she was ready and we had said everything we could. Lots of thoughts winging their way

Sending you a hug and a handhold lass

madison the benefit of us having had the diagnosis, is that we had 4 group family holidays, and a couple of small breaks, full of joy and laughter. It made us take the time to all be together, which we probably wouldn't have done in different circumstances.
Our next little seaside break is booked for half term, we will still go, but be sad that there's one less in our party. I'm sure we will all be sad but also spend time remembering with love.

Another handhold from me

Hand hold.

You love as a family comes across in your posts.

@WLmum what a blessing you had time to cherish your mother and the time you had with her. Sending my love.

Hand hold here

Thinking of you OP this morning and wondering how you are doing. There’s a nice quote from the actress Miriam Margoyles which I love - she was talking about her own mother’s death in an interview: “I think it’s true that the people you have loved in your life never leave you, because the seeds of that love always remain flowering somewhere.”

Sending you and your family best wishes.

Thinking of you op

Love that quote heartshapedfox.
OP your family sound full of love for each other.
My mum died about 10 years ago. I feel very blessed to have been given the opportunity to say goodbye, not everyone gets this. Your Mum, and mine, know how very loved they are.