I want to say thank you to all those posters who got me through the difficult days, the admission to hdu two weeks before surgery, the run up to my operation and the difficult days that followed. We had something special, we cared about each other and it was lovely.
It's very very easy to pick over someone's posting history and cherry pick posts or parts of posts and whip a few people up into a frenzy so that none of you are capable of independent thought or research. You all believe you've discovered someone with motives that are unpleasant, dishonest and ultimately out to hurt the lovely genuine posters that enjoyed being on a virtual bus. They felt a sense of belonging, safety and mutual support, the very thing that Mumsnet set out to be.
I made no attempt to hide who I am or what I was going through because I have nothing to hide. My story is what it is, my family has had more than it's fair share of tragedy and misfortune. The story is still there for anyone to read, I haven't asked for it to be taken down because it's real.
If you really want to go over my whole posting history you will find lots and lots of examples of me being supportive to other people, lots of examples of me complimenting hcp's for the excellent care I've received. But hcp's don't always get it right, they make mistakes, they get things wrong, they unfortunately sometimes hurt and harm the people they should be caring for.
Chanel you seem to have become fixated on a small selection of my posts covering a period in my life when my ventilation wasn't effective and the result was repeated emergency admissions to hospital under very frightening circumstances. You haven't done your research, take a proper look through my posts and you will see that I have a lot of positivity in my life. I do a lot for other people, I have hobbies and a life outside my home. Yes I'm living with a very frightening set of health conditions but they don't define me, you got me so wrong. All of the answers to all of your questions are there in my story, you can go and look for them if you want to.
As for the troll hunters who think they are so clever, their vile, disgusting posts and ridiculous theories that I'm posing in my daughters wheelchair or that I'm a carer myself and using the equipment of the person who employs me. Do you know how stupid you sound. There are no sock puppets, no duplicate accounts, I'm not out to scam people and I don't care what you think or do. You got it wrong.
Yes you hurt me and lots of the lovely posters on my thread too, yes you made me cry and made my family angry but that's what bullies do. They hang out together and think they are the dogs bollocks but really they're just a bunch of saddos with nothing better to do than pick on an easy target. Well you got your kicks and had your fun I hope it made you feel big and strong and important.
I won't be leaving MN or name changing because I've been bullied before and running away isn't the answer.
I want to thank MN for their help and support too, I felt that you were there for me when I needed you most.
The bus has been spring cleaned and repopulated with Buslings, we've left MN and found somewhere secure to carry on with what was started in the early hours of the morning in November when I was in a high dependency unit and terrified. I asked for a handhold and got one, thank you mumsnetters, you did good.