I'm finding it quite hard to unpick all the feelings I have after reading this. (I don't want this post to sound
me me me but I imagine lots of you feel the same way?). My first reaction was a sense of relief, but also vindication, which I know makes me sound awful but hopefully I will explain it properly, although I'm a bit inarticulate today. Second to this though is an awful amount of anger, and sadness.
Like PP, I personally know young people directly affected, and indeed harmed by this ideology, physically as well as mentally. I'm furious that they have gone through this. I'm also furious that we (GC feminists, especially fabulous MNers) have been trying to say all this for so long, but have been ignored, shouted down, silenced and abused.
I feel a lot of anger that we were subjected to all this now that it's finally finally starting to be recognised that this ideology is harmful - all the way along we were the ones with DCs best interests at the forefront of our minds, when we have been presented as just the opposite - as though we were the ones wanting to harm DC. (I'm feeling furious just typing that). The amount of abuse women have received, all the pressure we have been under, women losing jobs and being silenced and ostracised.
There's also a sense of disbelief that it has taken this long for sanity to finally finally start (albeit very slowly) to prevail. That an ideology so fucking ridiculous (and SG's ludicrous comments listed up thread demonstrate this so well) has been allowed to become mainstream and used to brainwash and harm children.
I also feel ashamed that I feel an awful childish sense of told you so reading the report - it makes it sound as though I am triumphant that we are "vindicated". It's not like that, my main feelings are just relief, anger and sadness. It just feels like we have had to fight so many battles (not just things like being called a terfy child killing cunt on social media, but the horrendous RL battles of women who have been arrested, had to go through court, lost their jobs etc etc). I have always believed this ideology would eventually be recognised for what it was (and like PP said, there should be enquiries and it should all be brought very clearly into the sunlight) but fuck me, it's taken such a long time, at such a cost, and we aren't even there yet.
I think the Mermaids frantic back pedalling shows the direction of travel though. What a shame we have had to fight so hard for people to start to realise that removing the genitals of 16 yr olds is abuse not affirmation.