Feeling a bit let down by 'the sisterhood'

[Hopingitwillallbefine]

I am a new(ish) mum to a dd (11 months) and have just returned to work full time. This was not a decision I took lightly but made for a number of reasons, including the fact that we really need the money for a deposit for a new house and I love my job and have worked hard to get where I am, and would like to continue to progress in my career. My DH also works full time. We are fortunate enough to have reasonable working hours (him 9-5, me 8-4) which mean that between us we are at home with dd until about 8.15am in the morning and from 5pm in the evening. Between 8.30 and 5pm dd is at nursery. We chose her nursery because we loved it immediately and continue to be impressed and happy with the quality and standard of care it offers. Dd LOVES nursery, has made a great bond with her keyworker and seems to have such lovely, fun and full days.

Apologies for the boring details of our life - all pretty normal stuff. However the reason for my post and what has really upset me/pissed me off in the past few months has been the attitudes of other women towards the decisions we have made as a family about working hours and childcare arrangements. I have lost count of the occasions that I have been met with undisguised horror, disgust or pity when I've told female friends or colleagues I am back at work full time. Not all of them, but enough to make me feel like a dreadful mother. Responses like "is there nothing you can economise on so that you can drop a day or two?" Or "god you poor thing, that must be miserable". Even my manager has asked me if i want to consider going part time now I am a mum. Similarly, I have been treated to a variety of unhelpful and at times offensive remarks from friends and colleagues about our decision to use a nursery including suggestions that we are risking our dd developing attachment disorder or questions like "is there no way your family could help?" (No), "wouldn't you at least prefer a childminder?" (No), "have you thought about how damaging it could be if your dd's keyworker left?" Etc etc.

These comments are so frequent that I now have a pre-prepared mini speech when people ask about work or childcare to try and head off all the criticisms and 'helpful suggestions'. What annoys me is the implicit assumption that obviously I am only back at work FT out of absolute necessity and that if there were any alternatives at all I would of course be working part time or not at all as all good mothers should - and to admit that I have chosen to return full time partly because I still give a toss about my career and enjoy being at work is tantamount to declaring that I couldn't care less about my dd. Further, I wouldn't dream of questioning another woman's childcare choices and have been really upset and surprised by how many women seem to think that nursery is virtual child abuse and it is their responsibility to educate me on the reasons why. But finally, and the reason for my post in this section of MN is that all of this, without exception has come from other women. Not one man has made me feel bad about my choices or questioned them in any way. Similarly, my husband, who earns exactly the same as me, has never been made to feel bad about being at work FT. Nobody has ever suggested that he might want to go part time now we have a child.

So I just feel a bit let down by women at the moment. I know it is impossible to 'have it all' and I'm not pretending otherwise, but I would like to continue to pursue my career while providing as much care, love and attention to my dd as I can. I love her more than I knew possible and love spending time with her. I feel genuinely excited every day when I go to pick her up and we have a lovely two hours together every evening after work when I am totally and utterly focused on her. We have lovely weekends as a family and spending time together having fun is so important to me. But I also love being at work and enjoy my day and feel so fulfilled by it. Shouldn't other women be supporting me and encouraging me, isn't this equality and freedom what we have fought for for years?

[LadyClariceCannockMonty]

[HeartsTrumpDiamonds]

teetering seriously those are some of the most passive-aggressive, goading posts masquerading as humour and insoucience that I have ever read on MN.

[teetering13]

Thank you

[Hopingitwillallbefine]

But without teetering's remarks the debate may never have developed as it did so I'm grateful for that at least! Every debate needs an opposing side... I have learnt a lot from this one and have come away armed with extra confidence and lots to think about and reply with when challenged. Yesterday for the first time I found myself talking confidently and unapologetically about my work and childcare choices which was such a refreshing change to the way I have felt and acted over the last few months - thanks mnetters

[Xenia]

Good, hoping. I always have done for nearly 30 years now. I want that message out there that being a full time working woman who adores her work and children is for many of us the very best of choices and can make everyone happy and children thrive. Too many press stories, presumably because the journalists are inadequates who cannot manage work and home and who have been silly enough to marry or tolerate sexist men and live in unequal marriages, go on about how impossible it is to work full time as a woman (but never as a man) whilst having children.

I always try in a positive way to put my point of view. If people say it must be hard I say it is much easier than being at home, that many people find 24/7 childcare very dull and that being a work provides a nice balance as well as feeding the children. I remember being invited on Woman's Hour about 20 years ago to talk about these same issues and it is a pity that now my daughters are in their 20s it is still necessary to discuss it although it much better now. Most men accept they need to do as much cleaning and child care at home particularly when their wives often out earn them these days.