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Please please talk to mw

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Terrifiedshakes · 12/04/2024 14:20

Went for routine smear at drs this morning. It was horrible. Nurse said she saw a lump so brought in a gp to look. I very nearly passed out on the bed and went into a cold sweat, hyperventilating. Gp came in who said yes there is a lump. Obviously got referred. The nurse and GP was lovely. GP said she didn't know what it was but she's not a specialist and it could be so many things. Nurse was kind and apologising for the shock I was in

Background

I'm 33
Clear smear 3 years ago with no HVP present
No irregular bleeding

Fit and healthy female I can run 10ks with no issues.

Only issues I have is after sex and when I'm on period it can feel like my cervix wants to fall out. GP looked at cervix for this 12 months ago and said she couldn't see anything

I'm so worried. I've been goigling for three hours straight. Texting relatives. I've been sick and I keep violently shaking

I've two chikdren who I need to keep my head up for and my husband is being so kind and helpful and has come home from work but I can't stop shaking

I know no-one knows if I've got cancer but I've got 2 weeks to wait like this.

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overthinkersanonnymus · 15/04/2024 15:03

Mate, you need to calm down. And like I said, I have OCD and anxiety with health anxiety, so I don't want to patronize you; but you need a metaphorical slap 👋. I've needed one of these in the past and never got one lol.

Ecroption and dysplasia are so, so common and, very rarely, will any cell changes (if any are even present) actually develop in to cancer.

I say this with sympathy and love, as someone who has had treatment for precancerous cell on my vulva and cervix.

Have you ever had a colposcopy before? It's sounds horrible but it's honestly absolutely fine. And the best thing about it is, you'll know there and then what you're dealing with. If you need a bit of laser treatment, it's a bit uncomfortable, but it's honestly not as horrific as you think.

Waitingfordoggo · 15/04/2024 15:16

I hope you enjoy the course this evening @Terrifiedshakes

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Terrifiedshakes · 15/04/2024 15:49

Overthinker. Thank you so much. I needed that as I'm getting ready for my course as I'm torn between going or not.

But I'm defo going now. You really pulled me up. I'll take some paracetamol as my heads banging.

I'm not scared about the colopopsy. They can do it on the townhall steps, while I'm naked and need to shave my legs. At this point I'm not longer me and I'm not arsed who does it, if they are rough, if it hurts.

My friend has told me to book afternoon tea in for the Friday when it's all done. But that's one step too far for me yet!

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overthinkersanonnymus · 15/04/2024 16:25

Go to your course, because on Friday when this is all over, you'll be sorry if you don't.

And the next time your health anxiety flares up, you'll remember these exact feelings and know that on the other side, is nothing.

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Terrifiedshakes · 15/04/2024 20:48

Went on my course. Had fun. Didn't take it all in but I was there and took some in.

If all is well ill go back next week and hopefully enjoy it more.

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Waitingfordoggo · 15/04/2024 20:51

Well done for going @Terrifiedshakes. Not surprising you didn’t feel like you were fully engaging with it having been in such an anxious state over the past few days. But it’s great that you went and hopefully you will enjoy it more next week.

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Terrifiedshakes · 16/04/2024 08:29

I'm going to ask the drs to give me something until Thursday. I can't live like this. I'm hyperventilating, dry heaving, dizzy, herets fast. Im even walking with a hunch. I'm re reading Drs notes and the referral letter and scrutinising every single word or phrase. Googling the definitions of words that I'm well aware the meaning of. Like 'Boarderline concerned'

Hopefully they can take the edge off how I feel.

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Terrifiedshakes · 16/04/2024 08:36

Does anyone know what drug I should ask for. I've not a clue. Something to take the edge off as I can't see myself sat in that chair in Thursday without trembling really badly

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Efacsen · 16/04/2024 08:50

That sounds like a good plan

Your GP will have the best idea of what short-term medication will help you feel calmer

Disappointed to see you're still googling

TheCatOnTheBedIsAllMineAllMine · 16/04/2024 08:51

OP I honestly know how you’re feeling. I could barely put one foot in front of the other but I came out of the hospital walking on air. No doubt you’ll be the same x

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Terrifiedshakes · 16/04/2024 09:08

Yh. If I had physical pain, I'd take a painkiller. I need something for my emotions. I feel slightly calmer now I'm in the que on the phone at the drs waiting to speak to a receptionist.

I better not cry. I dunno how I'm going to start the conversation, yet I don't really care

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Terrifiedshakes · 16/04/2024 14:31

I got prescribed proprodamol.

Hope it helps.

I spent the day with my friend doing something very therapeutic and fun together in work. A real treat for us both.

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guineverehadgreeneyes · 16/04/2024 16:58

Terrifiedshakes · 16/04/2024 14:31

I got prescribed proprodamol.

Hope it helps.

I spent the day with my friend doing something very therapeutic and fun together in work. A real treat for us both.

Do you mean "propranolol"? It's a beta blocker. It's often prescribed for anxiety, racing heart, palpitations etc as GPs don't like to prescribe benzodiazepines any more.

mooncloud1 · 16/04/2024 17:07

I think you need to prepare yourself that you may not get answers Thursday, they may need to biopsy, send a sample off etc.

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Terrifiedshakes · 16/04/2024 17:07

Yh that's the one. I already feel a little better. I hear the bad thoughts but the panic doesn't come as fast. Its litterally like something is blocked! I end up searching for it and by that time the thoughts have moved on...

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Terrifiedshakes · 16/04/2024 17:14

Moon cloud. I know this, but at least I'm in loop that little bit more...

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overthinkersanonnymus · 18/04/2024 08:04

Good luck today @Terrifiedshakes you'll be fine x

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Terrifiedshakes · 18/04/2024 09:33

Thank you.

My app is in half hour. Just sat in the cafe while DH gets something to eat.

I'm the calmest I've been but I'm totally empty as I've had a very bad upset stomach all yesterday probably due to nerves and the new medication I'm on.

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Terrifiedshakes · 18/04/2024 12:02

It's an etropion. No treatment needed.

He found my smear results on system. No HPV found. No abnormal cells.

Thank you to everyone who has shown love and support. Thank you to the people who have had negative experiences but kept it to themselves to avoid my distress. I k ow it's tempting to share.

I'm going to work on my anxiety as I know it can't go on as I older with more ailments. I've had lots of advice on here.

Please ladies, go for your smears. Be brave. They don't hurt. And if you do have to go and get checked out and it's a worry, then at least your bank balance looks healthy at the end of it because I've not spent a penny this week 😁

Thank you everyone, truly.

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Efacsen · 18/04/2024 12:17

Excellent news!

Well done for getting thro' it and your plans to address your mental health

Waitingfordoggo · 18/04/2024 12:19

So glad all is well OP.

My first ever smear when I was 18 returned abnormal results and I needed laser treatment (had only had one partner at that age so I knew where I’d got the HPV 🙄)

I have never missed a smear since though and have never had abnormal findings since that first one.

So now you’ve got the all clear OP, hopefully you can revisit treatment for the health anxiety. Maybe try again with SSRIs or CBT. All the best 💐

Tessisme · 18/04/2024 12:24

I read your thread before, but didn't leave a comment. That's absolutely fantastic news @Terrifiedshakes. If you're anything like me, you'll be on to the next worry soon, but in the meantime, enjoy the feeling of relief. It's wonderful😊😊

overthinkersanonnymus · 18/04/2024 12:26

Terrifiedshakes · 18/04/2024 12:02

It's an etropion. No treatment needed.

He found my smear results on system. No HPV found. No abnormal cells.

Thank you to everyone who has shown love and support. Thank you to the people who have had negative experiences but kept it to themselves to avoid my distress. I k ow it's tempting to share.

I'm going to work on my anxiety as I know it can't go on as I older with more ailments. I've had lots of advice on here.

Please ladies, go for your smears. Be brave. They don't hurt. And if you do have to go and get checked out and it's a worry, then at least your bank balance looks healthy at the end of it because I've not spent a penny this week 😁

Thank you everyone, truly.

Told you 😉

TheCatOnTheBedIsAllMineAllMine · 18/04/2024 12:34

Fab news! So you came out walking on air. Can’t beat that feeling can you x

SuncreamAndIceCream · 18/04/2024 12:50

Pleased for you OP. I think we all are. Let yourself feel the relief that it's something simple. And well done for recognising that you need help for your anxiety. Best of luck.