EGG no shrinks, but is it safer, cosier to be overweight for any reason perhaps?
I know I find it alarming to dress glamorously, I revert v. quickly to casual/shabby almost without meaning to. I feel much more comfortable being invisible, although I know I can look smart and striking, it feels "wrong", exhaustng, demanding difficult.
I suppose that's a different thing to feeling it's difficult to be thin, but may have same root cause - one doesn't want to be noticed, judged, called to perform in some way.
I think tryng to be smart or get thinner (not that the two are the same activities at all) demands more of us than the mere act of eating less, choosing/putting on smart clothes - you have to be the new person too, and who knows who that person is?
What will people have to say to that new person - will they expect things of me I can't provide? Perhaps it's not worth going to all that effort, after all it's just what I look like, not who I am [sorry, I imagining the sort of mental conversation one might have]
Deep down we care passionately how we look, but we tell ourselves we don't care and that we don't want to be judged on these things, that they are unimportant.
A bit late for this, can you tell I've been to the pub?
Anyway snickers bars really don't sound too bad, they are not poisonous or hallucenogic (sp?) and full of healthy nuts.
Dh constantly tries to sabotage my diet too, by opening bottles of wine, and ordering takeaways. But I now just smile and resist (mostly)
I've just had some beer AND some cashew nuts in the pub.