Fucking Hell I feel disgusting

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Fuck I'm so fed up with being fat. I look and feel disgusting. Does anybody else feel this way? It's time for me to take control.

Today I am starting my 'new me' regime. I've literally had enough of looking like this. Nothing fits me. I look a mess, a fat mess.

keira sorry to read about your friend.
That's really tough.
The poor darling.

Well I've gone and rejoined slimming world😏 I agree with the comments about the sweetener filled foods so I'm staying away from all of those. It's basically lots of protein and fruit/veg. Dairy and breads have to be measured. It's killing me- I love my weekend glasses of wine with crisps etc- on SW I can have a single wine OR the crisps🙈. Meeting up with some people I used to work with on Monday -I doubt I'm going to lose two stone before then-I'm sorely tempted to cancel but that's not the answer either.

Well I've fucked up for most of this week but somehow only gained a few oz. must be the heat!

Ds also told me my tummy looks smaller (not much but a little bit) which I'm taking as a massive compliment as he's usually so quick and to point out negative stuff!

I had another moan at dh last night saying I'm fed up of him trying to derail me (comes home with fish and chips, ice cream, starts cooking naughty meals without speaking to me about it so I feel guilty saying I Can't eat that) he's decided he will try to get fit too so hopefully this will end the sabotage!

Good luck for weighing in today everyone

So sad to see people use the word disgusting to describe themselves. You are not disgusting! Be kind to yourself.

So true @waterlego. I'd never describe anyone else this way but at times I think that of myself.

I don't think of me that way, just my belly!

And also never have or would call anyone disgusting, but my behaviour towards food sometimes is just that. If I was honest and admitted everything I've eaten in a binge it's exactly that...that's why I'm here.

No one wants and D&M they just want to lose weight.

Lost 2lbs! Now to keep it off, therein lies the challenge

I had to collect both DS from their dad on Saturday, a part of me wants to just shove it in his face that I'm better off in so many ways without him.

It's not the best motivation, but it stopped me calling for takeaway on Saturday night so I'll run with it for now!

I don't want to be skinny, just healthy and around for my boys, best revenge is a long and happy life my nan always told me

Congrats @Boysmomma 🎉 it's a great feeling isn't it? Just to know you can do this!! Look at two bags of sugar or two pounds of butter- that's the amount of weight you are not carrying around any more!

I have to say I am feeling more toned! Kettle bells for 15 mins 5 times a week seems to be doing something. though the scales haven't moved but its time of the month so I suspect that is why. I have been good so far today (not so much over the weekend). Trying to make little changes.
Having sandwich thins instead of bread. about 90 odd calories difference, also going to try and ditch carbs with tea so veg instead of chips, mash etc.

I don't want my life to be devoid of all enjoyment though!

Think I will start logging everything with MFP again, I successfully lost all my baby weight with that (before putting this half a stone back on!!)

I really want to be comfortable on holiday.

Morning! How we all getting on? Hope no one has fallen off the wagon!

It's hard to get that line of being good and sucking all the enjoyment out of life isn't it @flamingofridays. It's funny how much food can make a difference.

hi silver I am still firmly on the wagon. How are you doing?

It is! I don't want life to be completely joyless but at the same time I know i'd be much happier if I was not so wobbly!

I counted calories yesterday and stayed under so all good, I also did a "love handles" 12 min kettle bell video. Really hurt. I think I am starting to see some difference so I am going to continue with it.

I also weighed this morning even though I said I wasn't going to and I have lost 1.5lbs. so only got about 8.5 lbs to go now ish.

I think I am more bothered about how I look than what the scales say really.

Can anyone link to any exercises one can do at home?

eesha I have bought a 6kg kettle bell and have been doing kettle bell videos on youtube like this one....

I'm feeling pretty demoralised now! Taken another picture and compared to my before (only 2 weeks and a day ago) and I look no different if anything I look bigger. Almost wonder why I am bothering!!

Flamingo, can you try on things and see if they feel a tiny bit looser. You might have lost the odd inch here and there. I felt that same but then tried on this crappy skirt I wear at home and it definitely zips better than before.

That's a good idea I'll try that in the morning. I have a couple of dresses that are a little tight.

Dp reckons he can see a difference in the pictures. I will take some more in 2 weeks and see if I can see a change in a month.

Still calorie counting though and under today even though I aye a magnum and a rocket Lolly at work!!

Had my SW weigh in today - 4.5 lbs gone I hope I can keep it up & stick to it🤞🏻

well done onynx

I have just had an ice lolly at work for the second day in a row!! Have checked calories and it still fits so I am happy!!

I counted calories when I lost weight before and found it so easy but then I was at home with a baby so no office cakes or ice lolly temptation!

Mmm what flavour ice lolly?!

@Onynx that's a great loss well done!

It was a fruit pastilles one! Mmmm.

@onynx, that weight loss is really impressive. Congratulations. Did you feel you suffered for it or did you think it was relatively easy?

@Eesha Thanks😊 I actually felt really good apart from one day where I raided the biscuit tin.I planned ahead what I was going to eat. It was mainly eating loads of extra fruit, planning the dairy I was going to eat and the bread/nuts. Weekend was the toughest as I love a few glasses of wine and cheese& crisps- with this I can have the wine or the crisps but not both.... Let's see if it continues 😊

I’m wondering whether I eat too little now. So today had one enchilada for tea, usually would have two. During rest of day had one piece of toast, plus 2l water. Hoping this translates to the scales.....

that doesn't sound much eesha

yesterday I had

cereal for breakfast and lunch (2 x Weetabix and semi skimmed milk each time)

and battered haddock, chips made in the actrify and a slice of buttered white bread for tea.

I also had a banana, two small fromage frais, a chocolate biscuit and a chocolate yoghurt,

that was under 1600 calories which is what MFP is telling me to have.