Fucking Hell I feel disgusting

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Fuck I'm so fed up with being fat. I look and feel disgusting. Does anybody else feel this way? It's time for me to take control.

Today I am starting my 'new me' regime. I've literally had enough of looking like this. Nothing fits me. I look a mess, a fat mess.

I carry a little travel size baby powder around for chub-rub! I love dresses and it's the only thing that seems to work for me. Wish me luck for tomorrow- I'm off to try slimming world again...

I weighed myself.15 stone.
I havent HAD any chocolate or crisps since last Wednesday.Im drinking loads of water.And i was absolutely starving the other night. So i had 2 slices wholemeal toast, a scraping of peanut butter and chopped banana.It filled me and it was quite nice.

I've done my second run of week 2 of couch to 5k this morning. Keeping my carbs down at the moment although I did have a few chips last night. I feel slightly better, probably just less bloated. I'm aiming to lose 2 dress sizes (14 to 10). Just had chicken with cauliflower rice, asparagus and peas for lunch.

I invested in some 3b antichafing cream, it seems pretty good so far! I may also chop down some leggings!

I have been to spinning and scrubbed the lounge today, I wore make up yesterday and felt much better. I am going to stick some on tomorrow I think for school run. Today I'd have just melted it off!

I have joined my fitness pal.I t had my weight wrong and when i corrected it.It said i had list 89kg today.I swear all it was short of was laughing at me.
Anyway have put in my food for today.So see how it goes.

Hint on anti-chafing - not cheap, but I wish I'd found them years ago. And it was a MN email that put me on to them. They are a bit long and a bit larger than sizing suggests. I folded over the top, hand-sewed it along the edge and then fed a narrow piece of ribbon through. I now hand-tie them using the ribbon and it doesn't matter what size I end up.

www.marksandspencer.com/culottes-with-cool-comfort-technology/p/p22442546?prevPage=plp

I've just sat and worked out I have 13 weeks till my holiday

purple 1lb a week (min) is perfectly doable and so you can wave goodbye to a stone. 2lb a week is doable if you are very very strict and monitor everything and stick to about 1200 cals whilst doing some exercise, so there's almost 2 stone. You've already lost half a stone, so there'd be 2.5 gone... over 10% of body mass so you'll feel much better in yourself too! Go for it!

Oh bugger wrong poster silver not purple apologies to both. Knew it was a colour and it was previous post and I still got it wrong!!! Ignore bit about half gone already.

Ha I somehow forgot silver was a colour and read that like 'oh yeah so it is'!

Thank you for the encouragement yes I think I'm going to go for it and download mfp again to make sure I don't go over cals and aim big!

hi!

well I lost 2lbs and missed 1 kettlebell work out from being ill, but all is not lost.

back on it mostly, though I am eating what I want because I haven't really eaten much at all and what I fancy is better than nothing I suppose.

will be doing a workout tonight I think.

the treat bags I made are going in the bin this week as I did them the day I was ill (before it happened) and although I had clean hands and what not I am paranoid I will re infect myself!

think I will do some more for next week though!

It sounds horrible, but sometimes feeling disgusted with yourself is useful motivation... being in the gym, looking in the mirror just as you're getting tired on the running machine and getting a bit angry with yourself for getting in whatever state you're in. I've used that type of motivation. Focus the anger.

Hi all, can I join please?!

I'm 14st 11lbs of disgust (the shame!) need to get back down to 10st but below 12 would be a great start

2 small kids so I'm just going to start running around with them, although I'm convinced everyone is staring at me in horror when I go outside!!

Anyone have any success with yoga or something? Gym and classes are a no go so I was thinking youtube videos and follow along, need something gentle to start with though!!

I've lost 2.5 lbs today. At bleeding last.

Also walked 6miles and done a clubbercise class. Shattered now.

Boysmomma, Pilates is excellent for building strength and toning up, and may then give you the body confidence to try more cardio type classes. Do go to a class a few times though - you need to have an instructor check your movement to make sure you do t hurt yourself and you are actually doing something!

thanks keira!

That's a brilliant loss! Well done! I'm on my own with 2 small boys so it will be a while before I can join classes again, I used to love it....I also used to be skinny

Will defo give the Pilates a try

I am doing thirty days of yoga with Adriene, I used to go to classes so know what I am doing, but it is really gentle. As with anything, abs are made in the kitchen, diet is what will get us to our goals. However, exercise makes me look and feel better so I go 5 times a week and am doing yoga daily.

Les Mills on demand (subscription) or search for the thirty day shred are great at home workouts.

I've got 2lbs to go till I have lost a stone and I am back in the green. I want to lose about 21 pounds beyond that I think, get me in the middle of the green.

I did pilates years ago and its hurts but its fantastic for strength. You'r better doing a couple of classes to make sure you're doing it right though you don't want to hurt yourself.

I have about 10 lbs to lose I think, before august 24th. I don't think its going to happen! But I will try because somethings better than nothing isn't it. Hopefully if nothing else the kettle bells will tone me up a bit.

Im having a crap day.Im so hungry.Ravenous.Its taking all my willpower not to raid tbe press.

I did a fitness class yesterday, then walked 7 miles throughout the day. The baby generously woke me up at 5am this morning so I had time to go for a run and took both dogs so they had their exercise before if got hot so I felt quite pleased with myself. Still sticking to low carb and actually finding I don't want the cakes or popcorn that are in the kitchen!

And most excitingly, yesterday I was back in an old pair of work trousers that I haven't been able to wear for a while.

I feel so disgusting too. Ugly and fat.
My skin is shit. I just wish I could keep my mouth closed and just eat like a normal person.
I’ve been battling this weight since dc3. I used to be ok before then now I’m probably 3 stone overweight.
It’s summer and hot and I look shit in anything I wear with my fat arms, legs and belly.
I’m not usually this miserable but today I’ve had enough.

Can I join you all please? I am a fucking disaster. I fit into that awful category of someone who has truly “let herself go” and dread seeing people who knew me a few years ago. I used to model ( not saying this in a boastful way, in fact the opposite as if you saw me you’d think I was delusional and only modelled in my dreams) but having been in control of how I look and feeling ok about my appearance I am now at the complete other end of the scale, I am a frightful mess, I don’t own scales but want to try and sort this out and gauge any success by how clothes feel, although that in itself is pitiful as I can wear nothing other than huge hide everything tops and leggings which look pretty stupid in this weather. All the weight gain is wrapped up in emotional eating, the only way I think I can start to tackle it is by using tactics for addiction, ie today I will have a drug-free day which for me will mean not using food as my drug, obviously I have to eat each day but will aim for not using food in an addictive way, I can’t believe I have ended up like this - and yet I can completely believe it as food is so tightly linked to my emotions, I self soothe and comfort with food because the feelings are too uncomfortable, I don’t know how this will work but I have to do something, I really can’t continue this way, have so much self-hatred for how wildly out of control I have become. Sorry for rambling, can anyone identify with any of my nonsense?

user I get everything you said! I used to be attractive too and feel like I’ve totally let myself go. I also avoid people I haven’t seen in a while as I think they’ll just be shocked at the state I’m in. I hate that I seem to have no control over eating.
I think in all honesty, I need to give up refined carbs and sugar. I feel the pull of it constantly but that must be because it’s an addiction?
I actually did really well on an Atkins diet a few years ago but I felt really unhappy.
I was actually thinking of doing one meal a day for a few days. Just take good out of the equation for most of the day so I’m not thinking about it or eating it.

Hello Beech, definitely sugar and carbs, they’re the equivalent of crack cocaine to me so I guess the only way to make changes is to go cold turkey and resist the cravings . I think high protein low carbs is what is needed, just have to find where I left my willpower! Xx

I get what you mean user, I mean I have never been a model but I definitely feel like I have let myself go!
also, for me, I celebrate with food, drown my sorrows in food, every event in my life seems to involve food. Its not great but it seems that a lot of people are the same.
I eat far too much sugar and probably am addicted but I know I will never be able to give it up all together, and to be honest don't want to!