hi again
didn't lose any weight this week
decided to just be normal for a few days while pondering things IYSWIM
I still find the idea that I have to go on holiday looking almost exactly the same quite depressing. In fact, looking at myself even though I've gone down a size, I look the same...! I think many people have to lose at least a stone before looking any different.
So I have actually put the holiday clothes together because the reality is there is no point heading for Feb and thinking "ooh yeah I will need smaller clothes" - that just isn't going to happen with 8 weeks ish to go and Christmas in the middle of it. I appreciate no one "has" to overeat at Xmas but I will be away for part of it and I don't want to say "oh I won't have the pudding you cooked" or "I will only have protein at this meal", I don't feel the resulting .5lb loss that will result is worth it...! I'm not going to stand around eating lots of nibbles or anything either, but I think drawing attention to myself and probably missing out on very nice food isn't going to make any difference to the Feb holiday so might as well just indulge a bit.
That said, I'm going to keep trying because apart from anything else, I don't want to gain weight. But I'm going to try and stress a bit less and stop logging calories - I find tracking all my calories etc so boring and it sort of adds to the stress.
Before Xmas, I've got 3 meals out, which isn't horrific. I also will probably find it much easier in January, I usually do. This is always by far the worst bit of the winter for me which probably isn't helping as it is probably making it all seem like harder work than it is.
So yes, that's me. As it's now Thursday and I've not been counting, I don't think I'll weigh myself this coming Monday but the Monday after instead.