I have woken up feeling really deflated
I got caught out last night - I had to go out, didn't eat enough during the day, was suddenly starving while out - it was a pricey bar we were in, in the City, so I ran out to M&S to get a sarnie but as it was late, they had very little left and I just wolfed something down, I don't know what was in it (but I am sure it was preferable to a burger in the bar!)
I was thinking, I really wanted to lose weight for my holiday, which is now 9 weeks away. With an average loss of .5lb I can lose another 5lb?! That's not going to make any difference. So perhaps I should just stop using the holiday as a a target and start again in spring but tbh I am not that bothered apart from the holiday, though I know my doc would prefer I lost a bit, I've had so many failed attempts she is less bothered and it's not like I'm obese. The last time I was there she didn't even mention it.
unsure what to do. So much effort and boring counting for so little result. Already looking at the calendar and thinking "should I pull out of work Xmas dinner" because of all the things I can pull out of, that's the easiest (also I can't be arsed to go to town on a work at home day, lol).
I have trimmed down due to doing more targeted exercise but the actual loss on the scales so far - about 7lb - seems truly pathetic given how much effort I feel it has been.