Hi all
SW 144kg size 28
CW 86kg, size 16, BMI 28.4
Hope all is well. I have had a major blip this week which I am still paying for.
I ate my usual lunch around 1pm and then went to see a friend in the evening. The plan was to be distracted during dinner time since I was with said friend.
Oh did that go down the pan.
On the way, I decided to stop off at a petrol station to eat a snack. Looked around at the sandwiches and ended up eating a value pack of doritos instead, pm. I wasn't hungry.
Went to her house.
Left 8pm and decided I wanted to eat mcdonald's since I hadn't had dinner (I still wasn't hungry). Drove passed several tescos etc where I could have had a small sandwich but no. Drove 15 mins out of my way to get a mcchicken sandwich meal plus milkshake. Scoffed in the car park at 8.30pm. All whilst not being hungry.
Then all night felt like crap. The food weighing heavy in my stomach.
Next day felt like crap, just the grease build up and lethargic. Didn't feel like I could stomach anything other than water.
Anyway, it's been a few days and I'm still paying for it. I still feel lethargic and stomach feels uncomfortable.
I'm very pleased that fast food has this effect on me. It shows that my body isn't used to it anymore. (my usual order would be 5 chicken selects, milkshake, 20 nuggets and apple pie).
I asked chat gpt what happened and it's a real psychology of not wanting to go without food "just in case". So instead of listening to my body and waiting to feel hunger, a perfectly normal feeling, I want to eat just in case. I also go into a sort of frenzy, I can't describe it. Like, I rushed to the McDonald's, ate it so fast. As if it was my last meal. I don't know what happened and what came over me.
Anyway chat gpt has been coaching me through this. I didn't realise how deeply rooted these issues are for me.
It makes me nervous about reaching goal weight or the jab not working anymore because I fear this is what I am like.