Hi all, stopping by for the first time in a while because I just got to the 6 months mark and it's got me all in my feelings. I started 2 May and on 1 November I hit the incredible loss of 5 stones!! 32.6kg / 5st 2lb / 72lbs.
I've been reflecting on how scared I was to start MJ, and that in the end I did it quite impulsively so that I didn't have the chance to talk myself out of it. It's one of the best things I've ever done for myself (the other one being counselling) and I remember thinking beforehand that if I could lose 5 stone then my life would be transformed. It kind of is but it also isn't - I still have many, many stones to lose.
There's been some ups and downs but I've been approaching this with the mindset of changing my lifestyle, not going on a diet. I know that I, personally, need to stick with this new way of eating long-term. I know that diets work for a lot of people but I don't do well with rules - they make me rebel (you say I can't have chocolate, go ahead and watch me eat it!).
I added exercise at the beginning of August and, I can't believe I'm saying this, I actually really enjoy it. I've had to be careful about what I do because I have a bad knee (likely caused by so many years of morbid obesity) but anything in water is fine, weightlifting, HIIT, and aerobics classes where I can walk/step instead of jump about. Exercising has become important to me because I realised that it helps my mental health and makes sure that I don't lose muscle instead of fat. In fact, I've been gaining muscle and I'm on the cusp of my muscle mass being more than my body fat. I never knew that was even possible.
I've also been thinking about how other people see me. I don't really care that much, but I do wonder if I ever told anyone that I'd lost 5 stone if they'd believe me, because I'm still huge. Only my husband and mum know that I'm losing weight, and my mum doesn't even know about MJ. She can be a bit gossipy and took great delight in sharing with me that one of my brothers is on it. At that point I had a choice to tell her or not and I decided that I didn't want to get into it. But she did say that she could tell I'd lost weight and well done. Then followed it up with 'you used to have a shelf above your bottom but it's going away now'. A SHELF!!!!!
But that's enough of looking back, the end of the year is fast approaching and I'm hoping to hit 6 stone loss by 31st December. Just over 6 weeks away so it may not be possible but I like to have a target.
I really enjoy reading all of your updates and I'm so bloody pleased for you all. Even if you're frustrated about your progress, you're sticking with it and that will surely bring results. Just keep showing up for yourself, whatever that looks like, and you'll smash it.