Mid week accountability check - still holding steady, and that's in spite of not really worrying too much about what I eat. Or drink TBH. I think I maybe have achieved what was a goal for me, which is to use my time on MJ to re-educate my eyes, taste buds, brain and stomach about what the right diet for me looks like. I'm eating delicious food, sating the return of food noise with meal planning and recipe searches rather than immediately heading to the fridge, have replaced the dopamine hit of watching the scales go down with the dopamine hit of an extra rep on weights or a couple of seconds off my run time.
I've decided to cancel my next pen order - I've got a half pen left in the fridge. So I'm going to finish that and and then take a break for a month and see what happens. It's been 3 months since I hit goal, and I've managed to maintain on a low dose for a few weeks now, so low that I'm not convinced it's actually doing anything. There isn't any real suppression, and the drug triggered full post dinner feeling even if I eat almost nothing has tapered off (which is good because it is allowing me to judge what is the right balance to eat to feel naturally full but not overfull). I'm lucky in that I don't really have to think about the affordability of MJ, but nobody wants to spend money if they don't need to.
So super expensive Juniper have had the last of my money, hopefully. I'm feeling really confident now about maintenance, and TBH I had maintained at my starting weight for a couple of years, it was just life/injuries/stuff that made me gain in the first place. But whilst there is a lot of life to deal with right now (extra children all still in residence, their mother still isn't able to care for them, so it has been a shitshow of a summer), I seem to be surviving without gaining.
I mentioned this upthread, but somehow MJ seems to have helped me reset my bodies reaction to carbs. They have been a problem for a few years, and I was at huge risk of diabetes. That seems to have gone away, so my body has somehow changed in terms of insulin resistance. I still have to watch that I don't have too many carbs, but I can eat much more of them than I used to be able to.
MJ has been a gift, but I'm now a couple of jabs away from going it alone. Wish me luck!