Hey all ,
Just to keep you updated where I am .
this may become a bit longer post as I will use this as a bit of went. Warning of personal details that may upset some.
Tuesday morning on a train 2 hours from home I receive a call (which had to turn to messages due to signal) I got news that FIL had a fall or a stroke , he was at the time in the local hospital. Half an hour later I reach London to attend a meeting and got to know that FIL had to be rushed to a larger hospital by ambelance two hours away to have surgery. I reached the office and got the news that he entered the surgery a while later that he was out and that surgery went well, the following 48 hours would be critical. Attended the first client meeting and shortly after got the news that his heart is declining and their focus is now on that. During this 4-5 hour period my DH didn’t want to fly and wanted to wait it out. I decided that I should rush home, here is me rushing out of a client meeting to the tube and trying to rebook to an earlier train . Got on a train 15 min later. And finally got signal from DH to book flight . Reached my city and got stuck in traffic. Eventually reached home and 10 minutes and we were out on our way to airport. DH flew that evening.
it took him 24 hours to reach the hospital (14 hours flight with connection and then along drive) DH reached hospital and was able to see his dad for a few minutes . And dr gave the news that he is not going to make it and he has minutes or hours left. FIL sadly passed away early hours Thursday morning , 4 hours after DH reached. I am so glad I made decision to travel home and get DH on a flight.
I barely slept Wednesday to Friday, Thursday I kept kids home and had to share the news . dS1 stayed home on Friday as well.
today is probably the first day I am feeling some kind of normality.
Tuesday to Thursday I barely ate, think all I had was a protein bar when I started feeling unwell and yesterday was a bit more normal.
this post is not for attention or sympathy , it’s to share that life can take a sudden turn . It’s how you react cope and recover from those situations and the lesson of cherishing every day.
i finally lost 4 stones (4st 1lb) to exact but I’m not celebrating as the 2lb loss this week isn’t my work it’s due to the life circumstances .
DH will remain abroad for another 2 weeks, and that’s when my support etc is going to be tougher , but I’m strong I deffo learned that the last few days
did 50 clicks today (12.5 mg) will do another 50 click next week, followed by 40 and whatever is left 10-30.