Weigh day for me - Week 23. I started on April 9th.
Start Weight - 21st 9lbs (303lbs)
Current Weight - 14st 4lbs (200lbs)
Weight lost this week - 1lb
Total weight lost - 7st 5lbs (103lbs)
I wasn't going to post today. I was going to wait until next week, in the hopes I will lose a bit more. I felt really disheartened by losing 1lb. I am def in a calorie deficit, i've not been doing anything different to other weeks and ive not been doing enough to pretend i've gained muscle. I think I might actually be losing fat now rather than a decade's worth of sugar and water stores!
I know that a loss is a loss, and I should be so pleased with this. I don't really know how to word this, but i think i'm finding self-worth and value based on a number on a scale, and I'm well aware of how unhealthy that is.
I'm still so far away from anything resembling a healthy weight. My BMI is still in the obese category. I know it's a marathon and not a sprint, im just desperate to get out of the 14 stone bracket. I've been desperate to get out of every stone bracket so far, but i just want to put this one behind me.
I'm telling myself that even If I lost 1lb a week between now and Christmas, I'd be an entire stone down and to just take one week at a time. I need to revisit my expectations about weight loss and remember that 1-2lbs each week is considered healthy and sustainable.
I'm going to make sure to drink enough water this week and maybe try and do some light weights or something - just something to make me feel like i'm trying to help myself.
Thanks for reading these ramblings x