I need a bit of moral (?) help.
One of the many reasons I’ve decided to enlist the help of Mounjaro is during an argument whilst I was pregnant my partner called me fat. Whilst I was well aware I was fat, this devastated me and I think about it multiple times every day and constantly when I see my reflection. It literally echoes in my head over and over whilst I do my make up.
Anyway, I’m trying to fix it now for me. I can’t stand it anymore. And I sure as shit won’t let him say it again. It’s the first time he’s said anything like that and I know he won’t say it again as he literally crawls up his own arse when I refer to myself as fat now.
However, I have made it clear several times that I will be starting Mounjaro. He just makes noises and doesn’t really say much. So when I purchased it I didn’t say anything explicitly. I wasn’t hiding it, I’d already said but as I’m so embarrassed about my weight I didn’t want to trigger a discussion when we both knew anyway.
Anyway, this evening he heard me mentioning I’d lost 8 pounds. He said something to this person about how I’d wanted to go on Mounjaro but I’d lost weight anyway and the other person said about how we don’t know the long term affects. I just didn’t comment.
I’m certain he knows. I don’t want to have to spell it out. I’m fat, as he said, and I’m embarrassed. I just want some privacy to get my self esteem back. I haven’t hid anything. Should I spell it out? Or do I just carry on knowing full well he knows and I’ve a right to some level of privacy?