@lapuf Thank you. It’s been a life long slog.
So in 2019 I weighed 19st 13lb/126.5kg/279lbs. I’m 5’5 so my BMI was 46. Heaviest I had ever been and of course had to do something about it.
Over the last few years I’ve managed to get to between 16st 7lbs/104.7kg and 17st 7lbs/111kg. I’ve been hovering around that for the past 2ish years.
I’ve done some VLCD within that time and always been able to lose a stone.. then I would binge and go back up. I’ve been stuck in a binge > restrict cycle since in the age of 11. Chuck PCOS into the mix and it’s just been awful.
I’ve always felt like there is something wrong with me and I’m the one to blame. I’ve just felt like a greedy pig that can’t control herself.
You take a lot of that shame deep within you, don’t you? It begins to infect every area of your life.. work, personal, relationships, goals, ambitions. All of it. Always beating myself up saying ‘eat less and move more!’. I fucking hate that saying.
I actually can’t believe that there is a way out of this for us now. Finally I believe that I will be a healthy weight and I will be free. I feel so sad for the women before us that weren’t given this chance at life.
I’ll have to take Mounjaro for the rest of my life due to the metabolic fuckery that is PCOS but I’m happy to do so. Mounjaro till I die!