Well done on all the losses and the NSVs ladies, you are all doing amazing!
I'm having a bit of a weird wobble.
I'm 17lbs off of a health BMI, it actually feels achievable that I will be a a healthy weight.
But I never have been before, and as much as I don't like it, being fat is a big part of my identity. I was about 9 when the bullies at school started calling me 'The Fat Controller' and the ingenious 'Little piggy four eyes' cos you see, I wear glasses!
After that it became part of my identity that I was fat and proud of it and no one could make me feel bad. 90% of that was for show, but it was that or let them beat me down and that couldn't happen.
I've had men shout names at me on nights out, or just walking down the street in the middle of the day, or yelling comments out the window of their white vans when I tried to do C25K.
Will I feel like a different person? I don't yet, I still see me the way I was 2 and a half stone ago.
What is being a normal weight actually like?