Still struggling with sadness after losing our dog

[Dazedandconfus]

Hello - I just wondered if anyone else is also really missing their dog 😢.

We lost ours 11 weeks ago and I'm still just so sad.

She was old, and I knew it was coming, and thought I would cope better than this.

I was keeping a close eye on quality of life, and thought we were ok for a little while, but knew when the time came, I would like to give her a last, wonderful week and then a peaceful send off. I feel so guilty that it wasn't like that, and she got sick one night and ended up at the vet in the morning and was pts.

I can't help feeling guilty and wishing the last night had been different. Even at the vets, she managed to walk in and I thought we would be going home, so I wasn't cuddling her every moment I could and I wish I had.

I go along ok for a while, I think just with distraction, and then these waves, almost like panic, come over me where I just can't believe that she's gone and absolutely nothing can change that.

I feel we left the vets too soon, but once I knew she was being pts and was in pain, I just wanted it to happen quickly for her sake. Then we stayed for a little bit, but knew we had been an emergency appointment and people were waiting and she was gone, so after some last cuddles we left. I still remember looking back and seeing her lying there.

I did go to visit her at the crematorium for a little while and it helped to say goodbye properly.

I just have these intense waves of guilt, sadness and disbelief, panic, almost like I've left her somewhere by accident and don't know where she is.

I really miss her - sorry for the rambling post, I just need to write this down.

I lost my baby the early hours of yesterday. I was away and he was with my daughter. It all happened so quickly. The vet said it wouldn’t be fair to keep him a few hours until we got back.

I can’t believe I will never see him again. It physically hurts. I’ve cried so much. I feel for my granddaughter who took him to the vet and my daughter who feels guilty, but was with him at the end and after. They all loved him as we did.

I knew it would hurt, but this is beyond hurt. When will it ease? I get it’s normal, but just so so painful.

@Namechange26andabit so very sorry to see your post. That’s so sad you were away but he was with people who loved him, which from his point of view is a good and comforting thing, but incredibly tough on you.

Honestly you must be in shock at the moment. It’s such a painful thing to happen. It will get easier, time does help, I can promise you that. I find now it comes in waves.

Keeping busy helped me, once I felt up to it. I couldn’t stand to be in the house too much so walked and walked.

Sending so much love to you. As you can see from the thread there are plenty of us who know exactly what you’re going through. ❤️

Ah I am so sorry OP, it is awful to lose a pet.
It is not your fault that you couldn’t give her the final week that you wanted to, but she had a long and lovely life with you and she is at rest. You did everything you could have done xxx

So sorry @Namechange26andabit, you’ll be in shock, be kind to yourself and know that your doggy was well loved - and would have felt that. It does hurt, and it will take a while but you will be able to remember him and smile xx