Hello - I just wondered if anyone else is also really missing their dog 😢.
We lost ours 11 weeks ago and I'm still just so sad.
She was old, and I knew it was coming, and thought I would cope better than this.
I was keeping a close eye on quality of life, and thought we were ok for a little while, but knew when the time came, I would like to give her a last, wonderful week and then a peaceful send off. I feel so guilty that it wasn't like that, and she got sick one night and ended up at the vet in the morning and was pts.
I can't help feeling guilty and wishing the last night had been different. Even at the vets, she managed to walk in and I thought we would be going home, so I wasn't cuddling her every moment I could and I wish I had.
I go along ok for a while, I think just with distraction, and then these waves, almost like panic, come over me where I just can't believe that she's gone and absolutely nothing can change that.
I feel we left the vets too soon, but once I knew she was being pts and was in pain, I just wanted it to happen quickly for her sake. Then we stayed for a little bit, but knew we had been an emergency appointment and people were waiting and she was gone, so after some last cuddles we left. I still remember looking back and seeing her lying there.
I did go to visit her at the crematorium for a little while and it helped to say goodbye properly.
I just have these intense waves of guilt, sadness and disbelief, panic, almost like I've left her somewhere by accident and don't know where she is.
I really miss her - sorry for the rambling post, I just need to write this down.