Heartache after saying goodbye-support thread 2

[Helplessandheartbroke]

Second support thread for fellow MNers suffering the loss of a fury friend. I lost my boy in December and I'm truly heartbroken 💔

I’m so sorry, it’s so hard. I’ve been the same, thinking about times I’ve cut walks short because I just wanted to get home or the times he thought he was in trouble (he never was really) and the guilt is eating me up. Even last Friday when he was ill and I had to hose the lawn and clean the carpet, I keep wondering if he thought he’d annoyed me because of the mess.

My Bill had the same problem, it was horrendous. He often had diarrhoea with a bit of blood but Pro Kolin always sorted him within a few hours but this was nothing like he’d had before and he had no strength left.

She never did, we used to joke hers were like bullets, she was hardly ever ill (not like my other one - who I thought would go first). She has no platelets when they did the blood test yesterday, they thought their machine was broken. She was the same she couldn't walk.

Yesterday we had to put to sleep our beautiful girl who was only 3 years old she became poorly around 3 weeks ago. She had MUO (never heard of it before) We are heartbroken we wfh so she was with us all the time I miss her so much :(

@startingoveragainagain @Jodie782 hi both and I'm so sorry for your losses. It's such a heartbreaking time. 💔

@MadisonAvenue@startingoveragainagain when we lost Winston the guilt I felt was unreal. Not getting round to his Xmas bath, not bathing his cysts, short walks etc you must try and think of all the good things. You gave him a wonderful home and lots of love. Noone is perfect.

@Jodie782 I've never heard of that either. Do you mind sharing? Hand hold x

Hello
We lost our beautiful little girl Bibi on Sunday. We’re having work done to make the garden more secure and the builders put the gate on back to front so that when there was a gust of wind it blew open even though we had wedged it with heavy rocks. She got out and was hit by car.
She was only 17 months old and the light of my life. We had her from 3 months and I never left her, she was with me constantly. I can’t stop crying. I can’t eat or sleep. I just feel so sick and heartbroken.

Our last dog was 14 years old when we had her PTS. She’d been a rescue and we’d always said we’d wished we’d had her from a puppy. I thought we’d have our baby for so many more years.

@TragicRabbit I'm so sorry for your loss. What a gorgeous girl. Such a sad loss for you all x

@Helplessandheartbroke Thank you ❤️ and so sorry for yours too x

@TragicRabbit thank you. My boy was only 6 so I wasn't ready either. He was ran over once too after getting out. Thankfully at 7 stone he survived those injuries. It's so easily done its hard to keep them safe from everything x

6 is no age. That’s the thing, whatever the age it’s always going to be too soon. It’s so cruel that dogs and humans make such perfect companions yet our life spans are so mismatched.
I definitely feel excruciating guilt. She was always trying to make a bolt for it and our nerves were constantly on edge trying to keep her safe. We failed once and that’s all it took.

@TragicRabbit he was almost 7 and older for his breed really being bulldog. I feel the horrendous guilt on having him pts and wondering if we could have done more to prevent him living his eyes (gloucoma) he managed with 1 eye for 2 years but having no eyes is another ballgame.

I don't know how to ease your guilt as I was the same but it does get easier. You also have to remember all the positives you gave her x

Should have said losing his eye*

@Helplessandheartbroke I didn’t see the last thread. Would you mind sharing a picture of your lovely boy? I’ve no doubt he knew he was deeply loved.

Please help.. we’ve just received devastating news that our little 6 year old French bulldog has cancer and needs to be PTS. She’s only been ill for a couple of days.. lethargic and not eating… that was worrying enough and now this news is breaking me. For a breed of her type she’s been nothing but healthy her entire life. She’s my best friend in the whole world, my only friend… My 8 year old daughter doesn’t remember a life without her and she’s been sobbing her heart out since I told her earlier. My step daughter is 10 and this will kill her too. My DH has been in bits too… How do we ever live without her? We’re supposed to be going on holiday in 12 days and I don’t see how we can possibly do anything fun or smile ever again. Thank you for reading 💔

I’m so sorry that you’re all going through this, your poor dog.
Honestly, I have no advice. It’s still early days for me, we talk about him and we laugh and cry. I still expect to see him around the house, I still talk to him and every night when I go up to bed (I’m always the last to go up), I expect to have to move him so that I can have the narrowest strip of bed to lie on.

I thought I was doing well today until my husband came in from work crying. He’d taken a call from the vets this afternoon (they always called him, I was too chicken to take calls in case any of his regular diabetic blood tests came back showing a problem) and he’d gone to collect Bill’s ashes on his way home.
Our boy is back where he should be.
We’d asked for a paw print when it was offered and I thought it would be an ink print but it’s a proper impressed print in clay or whatever it is they use. I didn’t expect that and it’ll be treasured. I was beating myself up when we lost him because I’d always intended buying one of those kits to do that and it was too late.

@FajitaFriday I'm so sorry for your sad news. Have they said how long they can keep her comfortable for? It's the worst decision you'll ever have to make and we do it out of kindness for our fury friend. Here for a hand hold x

@TragicRabbit can I send one private? A pic of Winston would be very outing for me he was very unique. The first thread really helped me in the earlier days like I hope this thread can help others x

@MadisonAvenue he is where he should be! I said goodnight to my boys ashes every night like I used to say goodnight to him every night when I went to bed. It takes some getting used to living without them x

@Helplessandheartbroke I’m sorry of course I totally understand.

We are having our gorgeous girl (almost 13) PTS at home this week. She’s been struggling for a while with her back legs and over past week has become lethargic, eating v little and sleeping loads. We saw the vet who said her lymph nodes were enlarged and we tried antibiotics with no success. Decided we don’t want to subject her to further tests as it’s looking highly like cancer. Keep questioning if we are doing the right thing. So hard. Hadn’t decided if I wanted her ashes and wondering if it would be a comfort. First family dog and we’re all devastated. Thinking of everyone going through this as it’s so hard.

I'm so sorry 😞 it's so hard. We had our pug put to sleep after a short illness 12 days ago. I collected her ashes yesterday. I think it's helped having her back home. Sending you a big hug xx

I'm sorry both its truely a heartbreaking time. I agree getting my boys ashes home was comforting to me x

Thank you, it’s meningitis. She would have needed steroids every 3 weeks and had to stay at the vet hospital, she would have hated that. The cost and stress of her having to go through that just to keep her alive would have been selfish. It was already attacking her brain. It was awful to see our beautiful dog go downhill so quickly, and she would never truly recover. We are collecting her ashes this week ☹️

@Jodie782 I'm so sorry bless her. She will be home with you soon where she belongs 💕

So sorry to hear of everyone who has recently lost their lovely dogs, it’s so heartbreaking 💔. I’m feeling it so so much today. Yesterday was the Anniversary of us bringing her home so FB very kindly showed me the video of us surprising the DC with her after school. (They knew we were getting her not just that’s day). DS was only 3 so he’s lived nearly all his life with her.

my heart feels so empty I miss having a dog around, I don’t j is if I’m ready for a puppy though. How do you know you’re ready for another one? They are not for the faint- hearted?!

@sweetkitty memories are great but hard! It depends on you really. Personally I don't think I'll ever have another dog. It's the biggest loss I've suffered but some people need to fill the empty space... I've also got a 4yo so couldn't rescue and certainly don't fancy the puppy stage again 😂if I was getting a pup though it would be in warmer months where I could leave the door open etc

He sounds like a wonderful dog. It is so hard losing a pet. The house feels so different.

One week today for me and I miss her so much.

@User68 sending hugs! ❤ everyone on here understands what you're going through so please use this space to scream, vent, cry etc. Here for a handhold